This is me.

[Matthewhelm]

I used and abused drugs my entire life.. never had anxiety untill i went to prison for 3 years.. my last stretch about 8 months left. ill never forget cmt music awards 2014 the end i was walking up the isle to grab a drink and bam a felt like i hit a brick wall ever since my anxiety has gotten worse and worse.. i no longer use drugs i living a healthy happy life. except the fact my amxiety consumes me.. i feel like im dying... im only 25.. my mind tells me the only way to rid this is dying but i refuse to believe that. ive taken all the high end meds and they help but than there are days where they do nothing which makes me think is this even anxiety or am i really dying. ive has test after test all telling me im healthy as can be... please anyone with any information to help please im desperate. the girl i love has told me im no longer the man she fell in love with and that breaks my heart because i know its true.. what can i do??

[Stay_strong85]

Hi...I feel you. I am an ex alcoholic, abused drugs slightly a very very long time ago, and was a bar fly and you all know what else comes with that. Best days of my life, had fun...but it sure messed up my chemical make up, and emotional well being and now I am doing all I can to recover from my past. Good news I am healthy! Praise Jesus, thank you God! I have come a long way and yes it truly gets better. We are going to be just fine. I too lost the love of my life from it but guess what friend there is hope!!!!!! I am in love again with a new and better suportive and kind person!! You will find that too!!! I am with you!!🤗😇😙

[michaelagjess]

Hi Matthew, My brother was an addict so I sympathize with you, and congratulate you on being clean, that's amazing! I used to suffer with crippling anxiety, and was in and out of hospitals just for them to tell me I was perfectly healthy just like you. I used to feel like I was dying everyday and convinced myself that I was going to but I'm still here. You're a young man and you have your whole life ahead of you. If you think medication helps you take it but by all means DONT think that you need it to get rid of your anxiety. Personally it made me worse, it's just masking your symptoms. Try accepting your symptoms instead of dwelling on them let yourself feel them. You're body is completley healthy and no amount of crazy symptoms will harm you. As far as the girl you love, if she really loved you she would be there for you during the good and bad times. Your health and mind is more important than anything else, and you will find someone who will be in love with you for all that you are!! God bless you

[michaelagjess in reply to michaelagjess]

I agree with Devin76oh, God has helped me overcome this, I would go to church and pray and ask God for a healing. After I started going to healing services I always felt a sense of peace when I left, and you will have many people praying for you, including me😊

[Devin76oh]

First off I applause you for sharing you story.

One thing you asked... What can you do? To be honest, there are 2 things I did to get over exactly what it is you are going through.

1.) Found God and developed a personal loving relationship with Him. He is the reason why I have been able to get my life back and be ok again.

2.) Letting go of trying to fix myself with all these feeling and understanding that feeling sick is just part of the routine of anxiety. It takes time to have it pass but stop fighting it and accept it.

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Love you first. Love come. Love go. U stay. That why u have t love your first.

[Katlinma78]

Try Mindfulness, there is a good book and CD called Mindfulness - finding peace in a frantic world. I have also recently had cognitive behavioral therapy, which has helped significantly.

[Hopefulone]

Download and listen to Claire Weekes audio books on iTunes. She is dead now but an absolute genius regarding anxiety and nervous illness. She tells you how to think, feel and live to speed up your recovery. I've had every symptom. Been admitted to hospital thinking I'm dying, had a whole year of feeling sick and Ill. I'm on the mend now thanks to Claire. It takes time but basically your nerves are damaged and need to heal. Everytime you fear a symptom the symptoms get worse cause more adrenaline is released which damages your nervous system some more. Its a vicious circle. Stop the fear, stops the symptoms, heals the nerves. But it takes time. Alex