Sorry

[Janieliza]

Firstly I'd like to apologise for not being around these last few days. Some of you know that my daughter had an 'accident' whilst at school, she's not been good and is very low so I've been keeping an eye on her 24/7. Anxiety and depression targets anybody doesn't it? I've said this before...it has no face and doesn't recognise ages or gender. It's simply there. To go through decades of pain I didn't think I would be sat here now talking to the lovely peeps on here about my own daughter going through the same. The darkness is the same...the pain is the same. My attitude with her is the same as it is here and I try to comfort her with the knowledge that this doesn't last but because she's a child, it's too much. Lulu has body dysmorphia plus many more issues...i don't like labels but at times we have no option but to use them. Her face she finds ugly. Because of the syndromes she has certain differences and the one boy at school used this to his advantage. So at 12 she wanted to die....shes asked for plastic surgery to change her looks and when she fell, she said it was one step closer to getting surgery. As a parent it tears at ones soul...yes I've come through anxiety and depression but watching someone you love and would die for hurt like this, even the strongest of us...weaken. I've been working on her confidence and altho early days...shes getting there. Lulu isn't sleeping, these thoughts consume her 24/7 and she's just managed to settle and drop off so I wanted to take the time to let you all know I am thinking of you and I send you all ooodles of huggles. I often use humour to help people and I'm no different with my daughter, I got a smile!!!! Then she fell to sleep on my knees and I carried her upstairs as I used to do when she was little. I look at my 13 year old and the struggles she's faced since being born and I'm proud of her. Yes she's having a rough time of it right now but one day, no-one knows when, she will reach that light and I'll be standing right beside her. Thankyou for your on going support lovelies...without you i probably wouldn't be handling it so well.

Janie 💋

[Forestina]

What a poignant message. You both have beautiful souls.

[Janieliza in reply to Forestina]

Thankyou lovely xx

[Hidden]

I hope your daughter is doing better today. You are such a great mother for being there for her and encouraging her to love herself and accept herself.

[Janieliza in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou so very much...tough times ahead but she will get there, if I've anything to do with it she will. Hugs xx

[keyanote]

So sorry you guys are going through this...I hope she is able to recover quickly.

[Crzyredhead53]

I'm so sorry. I have body dysmorphia also. Hating the way you look is a personal hell . I hope she feels better. I pray she does!

[Janieliza in reply to Crzyredhead53]

Thankyou kindly, I'm sure she will. We have no mirrors visible in the house, she can't bear it. xx

[Crzyredhead53 in reply to Janieliza]

That's what I do too

[Janieliza in reply to Crzyredhead53]

You do what lovely?. The no mirrors?. It's terribly sad and I'm sorry you are going thro this also x

[claire0410]

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Not having had to deal with anxiety until I was much older (it didn't rear its ugly head until I turned 60), my heart breaks for anyone dealing with this, but it really seems I feel much worse when it happens to children and young adults. I can't imagine how heartbreaking it must be to watch your child have to deal with this. That being said, she is so lucky to have you as a mother. Again, my prayers and good thoughts are with you.

[Janieliza in reply to claire0410]

What lovely kind words, thankyou so very much and yes it's heartbreaking. I feel helpless at times...as long as she knows I'm there...batting for her..she will be juuuust fine xx