Hi lovelies, I'll try and make this brief(don't cheer😉😂). Having 5 mins break and still working, I always take a few mins to think about all of you. This is quite a hard time following the excitement(for some) and busy busy busy Christmas preps and then the slump happens. Ohhh yes the good old new year slump. Some look forward to a new year but let's just reflect on those who dread another year of waking up the same anxious way and can't see out of the nightmare. We know we've all been there don't we? Many still. For some an idea of nightmares is watching 'Zoolander' on repeat(my film list is endless so I'll spare you!) to being in the darkest place. Whatever it is....its there and to cope with it is difficult. I was reading thro my notebooks over Christmas(part of my recovery was writing every attack and feelings down)...they were tucked away, I decided to read a couple which turned into most of them. I was in the darkness for longer than my memory allows me to remember.. Some of those pages also reminded me how far I've come...ive said this before but I don't take it for granted. I had a few wobbles over Christmas and the worst I broke down....someone on here was there for me in an instant. I forever thank her as I still fear those wobbles will continue and anxiety and depression return on a daily basis. The support you give each other is amazing and don't ever forget that when you are helping someone else....you are also helping yourself (it's true). I send you my hugs on this cold morning in the UK and leave you with the following.