Panic hell....

[Aspergirl47]

Hey, I am having a really bad day ..Panicking because I'm at home but panicking at the thought of going out....Cant win!!! Does anyone feel this way? I was severely Agoraphobic a few years ago and never left the house at all for a number of years, so I don't know if its memories from that time that make me panic if I'm at home now, this feels like I'm going insane....

[kevoreally]

Marconi union WEIGHTLESS youtube it now it will calm tou down i promise

[Aspergirl47 in reply to kevoreally]

Thank u...so appreciated

[Agora1]

Hi Aspergirl47, I know the feeling as well since having spent 5 years behind closed doors. Even though agoraphobia has gone, it's shadow is always behind me especially when I start to doubt myself or feel overwhelmed. It is short lived because I no longer allow it to take control away from me again.

Anxiety will always be a part of us, our memories. But we no longer have to fear it or allow it to become our life again. When I feel as you do at times, I don't take it as a defeat but as a way that my body is telling me that I'm just not ready today. I do my meditation and deep breathing and keep a positive attitude for the day. Tomorrow is another day and I set a goal for tomorrow, a plan in getting out. With anxiety sometimes we need that structure, a plan.

Don't worry about today and don't put too much thought into it. It happens and so does life xx

[sarahjaneR in reply to Agora1]

agora, can I ask what was the thing that helped you most in getting out after 5 years of agoraphobia? x

[Agora1 in reply to sarahjaneR]

My beautiful Black Car waiting for me in the garage First I sat in it and listened to a relaxation tape, another day, turned the engine on and went to the end of the drive, the next, went around the block a couple times. And it just escalated from there. The car was just the start. It was the feeling of escaping from the house and it's 4 walls.

Small steps sarahjane, small steps lead to leaps and bounds . My breakthrough in actually having a destination was "The Dollar Tree". Walked in apprehensively, grabbed a cart for security to hang onto something and the next thing I knew it was an hour and a half later, basket filled (after all it had been 5 years) Walked out of that store with a feeling of accomplishment. I had done it. If only for that day, I was proud of myself. But each time got easier.

Let the forum and I hold your hand in taking baby steps forward. It WILL happen for you when you are ready. xx

[sarahjaneR in reply to Agora1]

Thanks so much for that, ive not even been able to drive my car since my anxiety came on. I will try what you said and just sit in it and listen to some music. Hardly been outside for weeks now. I think your right, baby steps is the way. xx

[Aspergirl47 in reply to sarahjaneR]

Yes, Agora1 has some great advice... Take your time..If u read what I done today know that its not the right way of dealing with severe anxiety, small steps is the way...Good Luck xx

[Jeff1943 in reply to Agora1]

Can you get a beautiful black car on doctor's prescription then?

[Agora1 in reply to Jeff1943]

Hmm Jeff1943, you got me thinking. It did give me the positive motivation to get out of the house. And the doctor no longer had to make house calls. I think I could have gotten a prescription or a tax write off for a big medical expense. lol

[sarahjaneR in reply to Jeff1943]

I asked and they no but they could stretch to some roller blades

[Aspergirl47 in reply to Agora1]

Thank u again Agora1....I probably done a stupid thing...I panicked so much that I went out and drove my car about 20 mins from home, then went into a large store for shopping and sat in the café but I have severe social anxiety due to my Aspergers and now I'm sitting here with a severe headache and stomach ache, mainly due to me pressuring myself...I see this is not the way to tackle anxiety I get so bothered and hung up on the thought I wont be able to go out again, it takes over!!! I live with my only son and when he goes out it seems to make me really scared and almost emphazises the thoughts of not getting out, if that makes sense Youre advice is great as always, it helps so much, I get so negative and feel like a failure, but I know youre right, a positive attitude is needed Hugs xx

[Agora1 in reply to Aspergirl47]

Aspergirl, are you safe right now? Are you alone? Let us help you through this and get yourself home. Start doing some quiet deep breathing...

[Aspergirl47 in reply to Agora1]

Yes Agora1 I'm safe... At home now, Exhausted...Sometimes I forget that I have Autism also to contend with...What I done was silly today...I will deep breathe... Hugs xx

[Agora1 in reply to Aspergirl47]

Whew...glad you are back home. Relax if you can. That was one Giant Step You're safe and that is what counts. xx

[Aspergirl47 in reply to Agora1]

Thank u Agora1...Safe and sound Too big a step, will need to control my reactions to panic, I really freak out...Hope u had a good day today...u deserve it..u are a thoughtful and kind person... Hugs xx

[sarahjaneR in reply to Aspergirl47]

I know the feeling aspergirl. I live with my sister and we run two hair salons together but last few months ive not been able to work and cant wait for her to get home. Feel 100 times better when shes home. x

[Aspergirl47 in reply to sarahjaneR]

That's how I feel....If my son is at home I'm fine, but the minute I hear the front door open and he shouts hes leaving, I start trembling and feel dizzy...Dr says its separation anxiety...xx

[sarahjaneR]

I'm having a bad day too, I just tell myself i've got through most of it and i try and busy myself. Not easy but it does take your mind off it. x

[Wyominganxiety]

I have agoraphobia on cylexa and valium now after 6 yrs of nothing so starting to see the light a bit, I have the want to get out but the panic of actually doing it ugh frustrating... I tend to have severe panic attacks in public places but as I sit here day after day it gets worse so I'm trying to push myself out little by little.

[Aspergirl47 in reply to Wyominganxiety]

I hope the meds help I have just started a new anti depressant a few days ago, I have ocd as well as Aspergers, I hope it helps in some way, the panic feelings are the worst...I hate crowded places, cant travel on public transport also, I feel for u, its horrible, but good for u, youre pushing yourself a little much better than no progress.. I sat in the house for years hardly able to open my front door...Hugs xx

[Wyominganxiety in reply to Aspergirl47]

I still can't do much teaveling and busy places are still a no go so hope in a little more time it will get better

[Aspergirl47 in reply to Wyominganxiety]

Hey, Do u manage small walks?I had cbt years ago and the Psychologist would make me just stand at a bus stop for 5mins then she would ask me to later get on the bus for 2 stops and walk back home...I never managed to actually travel far...but then no one suspected I had Aspergers, I was only diagnosed over a year ago..for me its also sensory issues, I need to put headphones on now to cancel out all the noise if I go a walk...that helps

[Wyominganxiety in reply to Aspergirl47]

I can walk a few blocks but I would not be able to get on a bus I would not do well closed in with or her people