I'm 18 I have anxiety and panic attacks all started at 17 I was a smoker started smoking age 15 I think weed triggered my anxiety not sure. I don't smoke anymore became scared. I was depressed at one point in life over a desicion I made that made me loose friends people hated me. I cried almost all the time at this time of started to smoke more than usual to make me feel better also it helped me sleep& I would get intensive headaches that smoking made feel better. One day I was so stressed & had a big headache wanted to smoke. I did that night I went home herd this notice that frightened me but I ignored it layed down closed my eyes to sleep & immediately stood up faster than I could think of my chestgot sotight & Ifeltlike I couldn't breathe my heart started racing Icould feel my blood rush tinglingfeelings inmy arms hands legs I couldn't really see if immediately thought I was going to die I remember yelling this repeatedly my mom called the ambulance I didn't know I was having a panic attack IthoughtI was having a heartattack. Once I was in the shower I started thinking about this night and my stomach started hurting so much like a nife and I had to use the bathroom except nothing was coming out in stood up and immediately fainted. I woke up the doctors said I probably got too nervous .. after this it's been hard to be alone to sleep I'm constantly thinking ima have a stoke heart attack because of my headaches tumors and so on it study to be a nurse so I'm also exposed to all these things.. my panic attakso have gotten better because I eventually with therapy learned to control it and not be so afraid the anxiety is what's hard to control how do you even calm down when your nervous ... most of the time I'm just nervous to sleep I'm scared I might die in my sleep I'm always thinking about death which I think makes sence since I thought I was going to die. When I try to sleep at night which is one of my biggest problems I shake, I feel as if I am sophocating when I'm sleeping I feel weird movements idk if I'm making this up and feeling the sensations because I worry so much but it's hard to deal with it neglect taking therapiutic drugs I feel as if they don't work because of a study about therapiutic medication and placebo. I'm also into psychology and mental health and I do believe in getting better alone I have gotten better it's just some weeks it comes back but my adviser to anyone with anxiety Is don't give up it will get better especially if you believe you'll get better.