Doesn't matter the progress I've been making, the little victories. Im back in that little black hole inside my head, im here again without any warning or triggers or how hard i try i always end up in that little black place where i get too overwhelmed too many screaming thoughts nothing good goes through, don't tell me to breathe cause my lungs hurt and my thoat feel like its closing, don't say I'll be fine cause i won't be able to believe you, i can't think straight
In case i do something horrible... it's been a pleasure talking to you guys. See ya 🌻
It's not one day at a time, it's one minute at a time sometimes. The blackness can't win! I want to go outside and feel the sunshine, but my sidekick loves the dark. My sidekick doesn't always win, sometimes I let in the light, and when I do it is pure joy. Just know even though it's one step forward, two steps back it's the steps forward that show who we are and what we can do. We suffer and we light up, it's those times we have to put in our memories to keep us fighting through the darkness and remember there is light we do have when we are in the darkness. Where is your chocolate bar? I need to go get one so I can find some light. Life is messy....
Just take a deep breath and remember you have been here before and it has gotten better.. remember everything that has tried to stop you and you overcame.. god gives his hardest battles to his strongest warrior, I know you don't feel strong right now but you are you have been there for others and have given great advice you will overcome this keep your head up girly!
Hi Danielle, I certainly am not going to tell you anything you do not want to hear because it would be falling on deaf ears right now. The little black hole inside your head is back maybe without warning but I fail to see that it came about without there being a trigger. Being overwhelmed with too many screaming thoughts is a trigger for sure. The thing is to address these thoughts. Write them down according to importance. Discuss these with your therapist or with the forum. We may not be professional in psychology but possibly be able to get you back on the right path through our own experiences.
Right now you have put this wall up around you. Kind of hard to help someone if we can't get to you. That wall is not a protection against your thoughts. Rather it is leaving you alone with them. I don't know what this talk is about "in case you do something horrible" . You know how much this forum cares, you know how much I care about you and your welfare. We walked together once before and I'm ready to hold your hand again and walk with you. It's never as hard sharing your fears with someone as it is trying to do it alone.
You are a smart young lady, who can make her own decisions, I just hope you think this through and make the right one. I'll be waiting to hear from you, I don't give up easily. xxx
justcallanxiety, thank you so much for letting me know. At least she is safe in the hospital. My worries were high for her. Please keep us updated. Thank you again, xx
I wish I had seen this earlier. It’s important to know that there will be “bad” days. Part of this journey is accepting that. By accepting it you allow yourself to see that when we have a not so good day it’s manageable. With time those days are less and less. They may never disappear but you will have the knowledge to work with it. Don’t give up just keep facing it and take control back. You can do this!!
Sweetheart.... I hope u r okay😔 I think we all feel ur pain & wish u brighter days. Sending u a ton of hugs, 🌻🌻🌻🌻, ❤❤❤❤ & 🍫. We're here 4 u Danielle ❣Love u 😙
Danielle I'm so sorry. I feel so awful that I didn't know! I hardly come on here bc we text or talk on phone. I wish you had called me omg I hope you are ok. We all love you!♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
You helped me when i was down. Youre a strong person and Everyone wants you to be safe and feeling better. Your advice has touched lives and we need you here, not in the black hole. You can do this Danielle!
Dearest danielle it is so hard but keep going. I too made attempts on my life and know only too well how overwhelming this can be. Although I'm still struggling, have bad days too, I am finding accepting a good start to recovery. Please read the book, knowledge of whats actually happening confirms once & for all its irrational and more importantly you can change and recover. Don't want to lecture but we all process everything emotionally FIRST. That is precisely why it is so hard to deal with anxiety with logic & thoughts. You have to teach your Amygdala (responsible for processing emotions) that its ok, your not really worried, so it will gradually stop making you so anxious. Take care. Here for you.
I know i haven’t spoke to you on here before just joined a few days ago.Seen your post and been really worried about you I will be here for you if you ever need to chat ❤️ xxx
Callmedanielle this anxiety / depression sux big time . When your feeling like this people’s advice sometimes puts you on edge even more . I’ve been to that black hole many times . But you will come out of it . Please don’t give up , my niece commited suicide 13 th June this year .lee had been very sick for 2 years and she fought and got through but because she lost a leg and all the trauma she went through she ended up with very bad bipolar and depression and the devils won in the end . Lee was very much loved and since she has gone a big chunk of our family is missing . My grief is really bad and only Friday just gone I got a Memory tattoo on my arm to help wit my grief for Lee . I’m sitting here writhing this with tears rolling down my face . So what I’m saying is your not going anywhere . You have your arms and legs and yes I totally understand the anxiety as it’s hell . But get out of the black hole and kick it’s arse and keep talking to us and living . And think about the impact on others .
Not once did I think or I’m thinking Lee was selfish no she wasn’t . I just want her back xx
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hey should i be worried or go to a hospital?
How I'm doing at the moment
Frustrated
The elephant in the room: how did we get anxiety in the first place?
Doesn't feel like I will ever be myself again :(
