Giving up on being positive.

[anxiouslady13]

I try to see the brighter side of things. I try to remain hopeful. But today is not my day. I want to just let anxiety win. My panic disorder is always making me feel like I'm about die and today I don't care if I do. Its really sad because I have a great life on paper but the demons in my head don't care. I have an almost 3 year old and that's why I'm terrified of dying, I don't want her to be without a mom. But today I would rather not ever deal with another minute of anxiety. Shit I just don't know what to do.

[Annielane]

I'm so sorry you're going through that. I know how hard it is to have those thoughts and to want to just give in, but you have to keep fighting. Write down a list of things you have to live for, things that can keep you grounded when you have those thoughts, that really helped me. Write about the little things like warm blankets, and grilled cheeses and clouds. Stuff like that, that is always good and comforting. Best of luck to you, Stay strong. Praying for you. ❤

[anxiouslady13 in reply to Annielane]

Thank you. I will definitely follow your advice. I appreciate you responding. I am feeling a little better

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Anxiety is a crazy demon. It can take the best of us down to nothing. The good thing is you know it's there so you can beat it down and become its boss! As long as you continue to take control of it can't take control of you🕸

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I don't know what to either. I'm 38 and I'm trying to find my place in this world again.

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Feel like something, "It", whatever "It" is...it's winning!😫😭