Hey every one, this might be a bit long and mumbled but I'm still quite anxious so probably won't make much sense.. I have severe health anxiety which most of you if not all will know what that type of anxiety entails. Any way I'm 25 female, the least little pain I get anywhere I think the worst and of course I Google, now calm rational me would say I'm fine, it's just my anxiety playing games and don't Google, but irrational scared me does the opposite and thinks the opposite. Anyway today out of nowhere I became really dizzy and it's been off and on for the rest of the night, also feeling really sick, after the first dizzy spell my heart started racing so then I started panicking and trembling and then came a headache. And then came a slight pain in my left upper arm, and also pains in my right thigh. Now I also suffer with ibs-a but more ibs-c over the past month or 2 but now tonight I've had 4 bowel moments, not very loose but looser than I'm used to when I'm suffering from the constipation side of it. Anyway I googled and it ranged from things like low blood sugar or blood pressure to worse case scenario stuff which most can imagine and I won't type them because I don't want to trigger anyone else. So as you can tell I'm even more anxious, I'm laying in bed, my husband is sound asleep as are my 3 children and I'm crying because I just hate feeling so scared all the time but also because irrational me thinks I'm dying and I'm going to leave my kids without their mum. Im on medication and im going to ask my doctor to refer me back to the cbt therapist when I see him at my next appointment in 2 weeks but what is there that I can do to try and help keep the anxiety at bay until then. I feel like I'm losing my mind, I bumped my head the other night, even made a post about it on here cos I was freaking out so much so that's making me worry as well. There's no limit to what comes into my head and as soon as it comes into my head I start feeling symptoms, when I was 15 my doctor told me I had psycosomatic disorder which I'm sure he said means I can make myself feel things that aren't real, so I know some of these pains aren't just my imaginations, I know what I'm feeling is real pains and sensations and that's what makes the anxiety even worse cos how do I know what's a real thing to worry about or just anxiety. It makes it so much harder to stay calm...
Sorry sorry and sorry again for such a long post I just needed somewhere to write it all down. Thank you