Hey, I'm nearly 14 and I've been suffering from really bad anxiety lately and don't really know what to do. I went to the doctors and now I have seen the school councillor but nothing is helping. I've noticed that I've been suffering from anxiety from around 9 years old, but I have never received proper help of advice. Here are some of my problems:
I can't get to sleep without listening to some sort of music, because the silence scares me and makes me anxious
I don't like getting in cars, I don't trust them. I have to be on the look out at all times and I feel that it is not safe to fall asleep in cars and I have to stay alert at all times
Everything has to have, even just a rough plan. If there is no plan to the day I will most likely freak out.
I can't do surprises, I get too anxious and freak out.
I get irrational fears, such as I can't go into the canteen at school, there's no reason why, I just get anxious whenever I go near it and I can't go inside.
I can't do public speaking or I can't breathe properly/ I forget how to breathe whilst doing public speaking because I'm too anxious.
I can't be in a large group as large amounts of people make me anxious
Loud noises make me freak out and I have this urge to hide or at least attempt to hide when I hear them. My heart rate increases and I get all worried
I am constantly anxious about my friends health as two of them have depression and two of them self harm. (They are all getting help)
My friend has social anxiety so when we go out I usually end up talking to people for her, if I can actually handle doing so.
I get anxious about going to school which I do most days
I get anxious about going to sleep because I am petrified of the dark.
There are probably more but these are all I can think of so far. I was seeing a councillor who seemed to think all my problems were something that I couldn't control the situation of and I shouldn't worry about. I don't really know what to do. Any suggestions?