Hi. It's me again. I've had a few good days, my appetite is slowly coming back. But I still have the constant thoughts that are giving me anxiety. I can't stop them. Even if I keep busy. It's so frustrating. Im taking my medication, im seeing my therapist but I really feel these thoughts are gonna keep coming. Im just really fearful of being an adult. I know im barely 18, i shouldnt really be worrying yet but i am and I feel like every year I age, im just gonna freak out which freaks me out more. Sometimes I'll accept it but then sometimes im back in the vicious cycle and terrified of the future. I want this to stop. I wanna be normal and be able to accept change. Cause this is no way to live. The world is a scary place right now and Im just looking for comfort and reassurance. I want to like rewire my brain. Idk how many times I've written posts similar to this but I just cant find what's going to make this stop.