hi everyone i am new here
my name is mina i am male from egypt 28 years and i think i have anxiety since i was 16 but coz i am in egypt and its not common to say that you have a mental illness here i did nothing.
this is the story of me i don't know how it can help me to say it to other but a friend told me to do this
back in high school i was lonly kid who do nothing i am not good at football like most of the other guys in fact i hate football i don't enjoy it. and i am not strong to be one of the cool guys who do whatever they want whenever they want. other guys start to bullying me but coz i didn't give them any reaction somehow they stoped and start to think of me like i am not even here. they only talk to me when they need something from me.
12 year later i am an IT guy now who hate his work and his company. i don't enjoy anything i used to enjoy videogames but not anymore. i have a really fucked up mind who can destroy the beauty of anything and anyone.
five years ago i loved a girl but she didn't love me back i think that coz she sow in me something wrong i warry about everything i overthink alot and i want her so much and i think she sow that i am needy person thats why she didn't love me back. we talk until this day she is not in any relationship right now and in fact 2moro i am going out with her. i want to tell her that i am still love her but i am afraid