Another shitty day.

[Raiycut]

I decided to get out of bed today .. my safe zone. Felt edgy and worried, ruminating and scanning ny body for weird feelings. This ever present guilt and fear is sooo taxing. I am 49 and feel 9. I siund self piteous but truly i am pissed off with this invisible illness. I cant fully explain to my family as i dont think they get it plus, its boring.

[Debby47]

Hi There. Well done on getting out of your bed. I know it does not sound like it, but that is an achievement. My bed is my safe zone as well and I used to literally live in bed like you. But, I am weaning off my antidepressants so that I can go onto a new one that will work and I now have this energy that I have not had for years, so I cant lay in bed now. I get up and go straight to my puter, do work (I work from home at odd hours or lets say, "my hours that I want to work". I start doing things like having my late breakfast and phoning people that left me messages.. anything to get my mind off the worrying thoughts. Keep doing it, getting out of bed and it will get easier. Hugs