Another day and still have hope

Hello friends

first I would like to thank the rest of the community for there welcome messages. It has not been a good day so far for me, got up with the normal trembling and racing heart and feeling a bit detached with like a brick wall between me and my daughters, I found it hard to join there conversation, so this ended very stressed and in tears all morning. So back to the sofa for the rest of the day feeling ill due to the stress. Have spoke to doc who said that 10mg is just intro and is given to children, and that I am to increase now to 20mg, this does bother me a bit as things bad enough now. So sorry i am not cheerful today. Anyway away from that is there any news on the community friend MR B coming back.

Bonnie

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  • Hi Bonnie

    I no that feeling when a conversation is going of , yet you just cant hear it , sounds like a load of jumble & I have just wanted to scream

    That's what anxiety feels like , its early days , try not to be tough on yourself , this does take time & it can be very small steps at that , but with each one , it does & will get better

    Sometimes when I get up feeling rubbish , I give myself a break , but you can start the day at anytime you want , because it started bad, doesn't mean later you may feel like doing something

    I also find when things were really bad , just setting myself one small task each day , nothing massive & if I achieved this , would give me the encouragement to keep trying , if I didn't , I would try again the next day

    I think your GP is right , that's a low dose , which I think they start you on & then up it , but again , it does take a while

    No sign of MR B & Bertty , still not given up hope though ;-)

    Be kind to yourself

    Love

    whywhy

    xxx

  • Sorry I don't understand this whywhy

    "Sometimes when you get up feeling rubbish"

    You are always rubbish!

    Now you know I don't mean that...... you are great.

    However I have noticed Will Rich has been trying to make a pass at you so it may be pistols at dawn.!

    Joking

    Grog

    xxx

    :-)

  • YOU ARE BACK THEY LET YOU OUT HAHA !

    How did it go , maybe a separate blog letting us no , I have been thinking about you :-)

    No Bertty yet :-(

    xxx

  • Thanks a lot It has been a hard day....and I am knickered! To be honest I am not really up to writing a sensible blog today but all being well I will write tomorrow and thank you all.

    Bertty has promised me to come back on Saturday but he is feeling very nervous and ashamed and still wants Mr B to come back........as do we all.

    Sorry to bonnie I don't want to interupt your blog..... I can see you are doing well and good luck

    Grog

    xxx

  • OK grog

    I understand & will look forward to reading your blog , when you are ready , pleased to see you on here though

    Tell Bertty , not to be ashamed , he has nothing to be ashamed over & that's from whywhy

    Tell him he should feel bad about leaving whywhy without her evening song & to get his butt back on here Saturday , I will be looking out for him & a very special song

    Mr B is wanted back , I feel though he may have needed a break & I am sure it wont be down to Bertty that he has gone

    Yes sorry as well Bonnie ....grog is old & forgets which blog he is on :-D

    xxxx

  • YAH BOO

    :-)

    xxx

  • :-D

    xxx

  • Wise words as usual Whywhy and i too try to do small tasks and not overload my brain, You are right when you say try again next day. I count myself lucky that i can put thing off as i am retired, but i do feel sorry for the people on here who have to balance everything and hold a job down too, must be very difficult for them at times

    Keep up the good work

    Rubyx

  • yes I agree , double the work

    xxx

  • Hi whywhy

    Thank you whywhy, I ended up going to sleep for a bit then for a short walk with my daughter, I get very upset with the feelings of not being able to talk and the detached feeling like being stuck in a bubble and cant get out, did have this before taking the meds but not as bad. I can deal with all the other symptoms. but not the detached feeling it sends into a terrible state, so much crying day I now feel worse, just myself to blame for that adding more stress. It is another day tomorrow and I wont lay down to anxiety, and as you say going to try and be kinder to myself and try to focus on something else each day. And up to 20mg with the meds tonight

    love

    Bonnie

    xxxx

  • Bonnie

    Well done you got out for a walk , that's great hun the way you are feeling

    Don't worry about the bubble feeling , I no what you mean , give it time

    Yes feel proud , you felt terrible , yet went for a walk

    Do something for you now later , maybe some chocolate , anything that's a treat , you deserve one

    xxx

  • whoops reply in wrong box I think so have copied into this one

    Thank you whywhy

    My daughter has just got back from town and has treated me to a top its really nice just a bit big as I have lost 2stone just over , but can get away with it with the type of top that she has got me. And she got cream cakes she said I need them, ha. I also think that I may do a positive list I am so busy thinking how rubbish I feel with the anxiety and the symptoms, that I don't seem to focus on any of the positive things I might do. Like going to the kitchen and making myself a drink, this I could not do 3 weeks ago but do now, and going for a short walk.

    Bonnie

    xxx

  • whywhy

    Have you heard of the linden method? I have just told grog what I found. Other community members may have heard of this.

    Bonnie

    xxx

  • Thank you whywhy

    My daughter has just got back from town and has treated me to a top its really nice just a bit big as I have lost 2stone just over , but can get away with it with the type of top that she has got me. And she got cream cakes she said I need them, ha. I also think that I may do a positive list I am so busy thinking how rubbish I feel with the anxiety and the symptoms, that I don't seem to focus on any of the positive things I might do. Like going to the kitchen and making myself a drink, this I could not do 3 weeks ago but do now, and going for a short walk.

    Bonnie

    xxx

  • Bonnie

    I think its a great idea to do a positive list

    Remember to put your daughters on it , how lovely bringing you a new top & enjoy those cream cakes ;-)

    See you have met our friend grog (the joker ) :-D

    Now you will never have a dull moment on here with him about ;-)

    xxx

  • yes grog made me laugh and I haven't done that in a long time. I have had the cream cake and started my positive list.

    Bonnie

    xxxx

  • Good for you , what started of not such a good day , reading your comments , I feel your day has got better , that has been all down to you doing your best , however small , it doesn't matter , so well done

    Yes grogs pic seems to have changed again , I feel he is looking a little depressed :-D

    xxx

  • How has your day been whywhy? Did you do something today? Do you manage to get out at all? I am going to try small things again tomorrow and I plan another short walk.

    Bonnie

    xx

  • To be honest , I don't get out much no , that's what I have to work on

    My anxiety I can keep manageable , until that thought

    But been on here , I do feel I am getting closer to getting out

    I have a hubby & son , 2 older daughters have now left home & I do have OCD , so that keeps me busy

    Its a good thing you getting out though , I no when I can it will be so much better for me :-)

    xxx

  • whywhy have you heard of the linden method I have told grog of what have found, also if other members have heard of this. You have the same as me as well I have a daughter 35 another 30 and a son 33 and two grandsons 9 and 2 and half..

    On going out could you just be able to open the front door and look out for say 5mins each day for a while.

    Bonnie

    xxx

  • Yes I can do that , I can be in the garden , I can go to the end of the street

    If its someone I no well , I will go to their house , but have to no they will bring me back , so I have to trust them

    But its the OCD as well that keeps me chained to the house

    I am waiting for therapy & I no it will get sorted , I do feel though I am getting ready to try

    I chat at the door with my sons friends & all the delivery men that come , as I have it of to a fine art how to get everything I want on line & the delievery men have become familiar with me :-D

    I have goals though , I have set & slowly , I no I will achieve them

    xxx

  • you do very well to chat to people at the door. I also shop online, but I wont go to the door to the drivers/ as I cant seem to concentrate on conversation face to face for long even with my daughters I cant seem to join in. Did you see my bit about the Linden Method? have you heard of it?

    Bonnie

    xxx

  • Well I do cheat sometimes & shout hubby to go to the door , depends on what kind of day I am having

    I am a people person really & enjoy talking & I love having a laugh , think that's what I miss most

    No I have not heard of it , I will have a look

    xxx

  • whywhy below is what I found and said a bit about it to grog

    Bonnie xxx

    yes have a look. I can tell you a bit about it. It is a program that you do where you have to put a daily structure in place to occupy our minds from the time we get up until bed to drive out anxiety and the thoughts that drive it. It says that anxiety takes root in our sub conscious because our minds got bored and that by doing the method it drives out the old habit and replaces with new path ways. it also says that us with anxiety are not ill at all and that anxiety is a behaviour condition, and we are not physically ill or mentally ill. he Charles Linden suffered for 27 years and created the method and cured him self. He also says that people who develop anxiety have creative intellect and superior intelligence, He says a lot more look his site up look for the link that has the linden method.

  • I will , sounds interesting

    Not so sure I have superior intelligence lol but I will read what he has to say

    xxx

  • Bonnie forget the chocolates.

    I am your treat

    I am only 68 with a dicky ticker.....a big nose......knocked knees......loads of hair in my ears

    and holes in my pockets.

    What more could you want?

    :-)

    Grog

  • Nice to meet you Grog,, and you have made me laugh I haven't done that for a while. From your pic you look cool to me. And have a sense of humour, I like that in a man, my ex husband didn't have that he was so boring. Do you have anxiety Grog? do you go out? or like me just a short walk at the moment.

    Bonnie

    x

  • Hello Bonnie

    First of all I love to make people laugh,because if you can laugh, even at adversity then you are on the way to recovery.

    Yes I do suffer from anxiety,panic attacks and acute insomnia.Also that is not my real picture.WHYWHY has seen my real picture and has worn dark glasses ever since!!

    Join in the fun Bonnie,there's a great crew here

    Grog

    xxx

  • yes they are and all so friendly , I don't feel so isolated now . I agree with the laughter its just hard to drag it up. I don't have the insomnia I think because I have had enough all day that I am glad to go to bed and sleep , Do you take meds grog to help? i;have not long started them to try and help,

    Bonnie

    xxx

  • Bonnie,

    In my younger days I used to suffer from depression and the tablets I had, used to really knock me out I was walking about like a zombie......Mind you I still do and that is without taking any tablets.

    About 4 years ago I was put on the same meds as you are now only 30mg and found it really good.

    Since I had a heart attack in April the only meds I can take is valium as all the others can affect the hearts rythmn

    Trouble is valium is highly addictive and just helps me sleep for two or three hours at a time.

    Never mind there is always someone worse off than you or me so keep smelling like I do .... oops misprint....smiling.. Ps whywhy has loads of potted garden pants she is selling at half price. They will cheer you up.....so colourful

    Grog

    xxx

  • Plants no longer on offer

    He is back , he didn't like it , so he payed to get a flight back early

    I took them plants in for nothing :-D

    xxx

  • Valium is that Diazapam? if so I took a 2,5 of that yesterday and today to try and help and have felt very tired. Also I would like to ask have you heard of the Linden Method or has any of the community that you no of? The plants is a good idea I used to do loads of tubs but not for the last 2years.

    Bonnie

    xx

  • Yes Valium is Diazapam and I am afraid that 2.5mg is the smallest dose I have ever heard of,,,.I am on 20mg taken in 4 seperate doses of 5mg between morning and evening.

    Linden Method ? Personally have not heard of it. There are many wiser people than me on here who can probably answer your question.

    However sounds intriguing so I am going to look it up.

    Thanks

    Grog

    xxx

  • yes have a look. I can tell you a bit about it. It is a program that you do where you have to put a daily structure in place to occupy our minds from the time we get up until bed to drive out anxiety and the thoughts that drive it. It says that anxiety takes root in our sub conscious because our minds got bored and that by doing the method it drives out the old habit and replaces with new path ways. it also says that us with anxiety are not ill at all and that anxiety is a behaviour condition, and we are not physically ill or mentally ill. he Charles Linden suffered for 27 years and created the method and cured him self. He also says that people who develop anxiety have creative intellect and superior intelligence, He says a lot more look his site up look for the link that has the linden method.

    Bonnie

    xx

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