Daytime fear

[Brook973]

I have always had a mix of depression and anxiety but have been able to somewhat control it with meds. But a month ago I had a major surgery and have been off work. I have my days and nights mixed up, sleeping all day and staying up at night. I have noticed that when I do try to stay up during the day I have extreme anxiety. But at night I am very relaxed, able to think about plans for the future, and hopeful. But once daylight comes I just feel like the world is closing in on me and such a sense of doom. So I just sleep. Every time the phone rings or I get a text my heart sinks with dread of what it could be. My teen recently got into some legal trouble that we are still trying to deal with, so maybe that's part of it. I just feel like the daytime scares me to death. And the fear of going back to work, getting back into routine is terrifying. Everyday I feel like there's just one bad thing after another right around the corner. Night is my only relaxing time which I guess may be why I have been staying up all night. Does anyone have advice?

[blossomgirl]

Hi, I too suffer in the day with heart palpitations and dizziness with the dread I need to return to work in 2 weeks. I overthink everything so I am just trying to keep busy so I don't think. It's a challenge and I am full of fear. I'm paranoid as well. Just keep sharing your thoughts as you are not alone. Together we can fight this. 👍

[Sudde]

Pretty much similar issue I am going through currently. I have fear of falling to outer space. Now this thing got worse when I am seeing Sunrays/Daylight.

It’s just a self created imaginary fear that as if I am getting lost in the space between Sun and Earth. But during Night since the Moon’s impact is not much like Sun so I feel comfortable at Night.

Can anybody suggest me what I can do in order to overcome this fear.

[JohnDS]

I have the same problem. Daytime fear.

I used to be a teacher but a couple of years ago I lost my job. Due to the excess of free time I have been involved in local politics, a mistake I deeply regret.

Exploiters used me and then threw me away. Politics can be toxic and unrewarding.

Some months ago I started having insomnia and anxiety. It happened after countless arguments and disappointments and after being abandoned by those I confided in (they owed me a lot... I actually helped them win elections).

Long-term unemployment and frustration made me increasingly depressed and hopeless.

Recently I closed all my social media accounts for fear of being attacked or insulted by other people and now I barely leave my apartment.

The town where I grew up looks to me like an alien and hostile place.

My social life is almost dead.

The only people I see on a regular basis are my 70 years old parents, mostly because we live in the same condo complex. At night I stay awake reading books and watching movies.

When everything is quiet and silent I feel quite relaxed and I tend to be more optimistic about my future: I realize that I still have many years ahead of me (I am 39) and that I could still find a decent job somewhere (I hold a PhD degree).

On the contrary, during the daytime, I feel worried, stressed and anxious, I overthink things and I become very pessimistic: when the phone rings I am afraid to receive bad news, exactly like the original poster. Sometimes I sleep the whole afternoon and I wake up at 6.30 PM, just in time for dinner.