I am constantly watching the news or checking CNN, basically waiting to hear that NK has launched an ICBM at us. I just had a total breakdown while sending my 4yo off to school and husband off to work. I feel like death is imminent. I just want to be able to protect my family and I can't do that without them here. I know I can't do it *with* them here either but if it's gonna happen, I just want us all to go out together.
A few days ago, I had a nightmare that we were at the airport when a missle was coming and I couldn't find my son due to the chaos. I woke up hyperventilating. I had another nightmare that there was all out war and my daughter was laying on my chest (she was IRL) crying because she was dying and there was nothing I could do, as I was dying too.
We got a call in the middle of the night saying to take shelter because there was a hostage/SWAT situation. So now every time the phone rings, I expect it to be that but war. This morning when the alarm went off, I thought it was a missle alert. Idk if that's a thing but I'm assuming we'd get alerted somehow.
I'm in therapy weekly. I'm on meds. I need help. I don't know what to do. Part of me feels like I'm being irrational, other part of me knows that it's only a matter of time before 45 says some shit on Twitter and gets us all fucking nuked. I'm fucking terrified.
I probably need in patient mental help but I'm not a danger to myself or anyone else so I don't know how likely it is for me to get help. I also can't leave my kids and husband to get help. We can't afford for him to miss work and we have no family here to help out.
I just don't know what to do. I'm fucking scared. I want to protect my kids. I wanna pull my son out of preschool. I want my kids with me. I want my husband with me. I need help.
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There is a lot of negative things going on and awful things around the world. Sometimes it's best to have a break from the news and the internet as I don't think this always helps our mental health. Try having a break from it and do some meditation instead. X
Oh my, I lived in Pais for the last three years and was never fearful (on my guard a little) of an attack! Now living in the UK and dreamt of terrorism attack last night! This is not good so I'm stepping away.
Take a break from healthunlocked - it's a wonderful place to come when you're feeling low, talking / typing is a release but take the day off line... No internet, no Twitter, no news. Go and grab a coffee in a independent outlet... there's a wonderful world out there even locally. I think you'll feel refreshed.
Absolutely! The media is hell bent on 'Project Fear' - im not going to go into how I believe the media is manipulated by the PTB, except to say that fear is the greatest propaganda tool throughout history to control the masses and keep them fearfully loyal to 'those in charge'.
I encourage you to take a break as Nicki says - tune out your car radio to a station that just plays music, skip the news channels on tv and take a little time to do a fun activity like a fall picnic with your children, if you can. Today is all we have anyway, and worrying about tomorrow deprives you of spending quality time with those you love in the here and now. xxxx
Hey MermaidMomma, believe it or not I know just how you feel. At the age of 12 when the two towers were hit everyone began to talk about the end of the world coming. I was only a child and already facing the idea of total destruction due to terrorisim. I deceloped G.A.D and was pot on 40mg of prozac and a lot of sedatives. My family couldn't afford a therapist so I was put on a waiting list. Even though I never harmed myself or anyone I was afraid I would somehow hurt my family members and was a danger to them. My parents broke up in the middle of it all and I began to develop day long panic attacks which I had no choice but to go to school through. NOW the reason I'm telling you all this is to say YOU WILL BE OKAY!! Definately! Look at me! I also worry slightly about NK (I livein London, allied with America) and I have GAD but I'm doing so much better now! Keep moving forward, even if you can only say to yourself 'I'll be okay for the next twenty minutes' and then when the 29 mins are up just do it all over again. If you feel you need some extra help then there may be some low budget help available in along the lines of in patient help. In Ireland (where I'm from) we would go to a citizens advice or a local community group to ask about these kind of things.
As for NK and the situation there, look at it like this; your country has survived a cold war and many more dangers in the past. Plus lets be frank, going by Donald Trump's speech at the UN the other day, he's ready to go to any lengths to protect America.
It's also worth nothing that the UN has brought in sanctions to stop NK gaining the equipment and fuel it needs to continue working on it's bombs, and also they only have the capabilities to fire as far as Japan right now.
Right now the best thing to do is take care of yourself. Look at it like this; if you take care of yourself now, you'll be able to take care of your family fully if anything DOES happen.
I feel a bit better since taking my Klonopin, snuggling with my daughter and watching Moana. Also, we didn't get blown up so my son is home from school🙌 Now if it could hurry up and be 4:00 so my husband will be home, that'd be great.
For those of you not in the US, can I just apologize on behalf of America for the stupid, "very very" ignorant shit that comes out of our "president"'s mouth and twitter? I swear we aren't all like him. Like at all🙄😒
The world is such a scary place. Hurricanes, fires, earthquakes, Myanmar, NK... I just wanna hug everyone and give them cookies, sandwiches, and cozy blankets. Except NK - KJU gets nothing but a throat punch and a shanking 😉
The only help you can give yourself is to stop watching news channels, that way you won't need to medicate yourself and you'll feel alot lot better.
Never live in fear but in preparation. All we can do as human beings under these conditions is stand together, fight, help one another, and live! I can feel that you're a good mother and regardless of how you may feel or what you may think, you've been doing a hell of a job protecting them already thus far, if you hadn't your daughter wouldn't be laying near you at night, there are far more sinister and life threatening things, people and scenarios that take place, yet they're with you So don't worry so much about that, lastly try not to dwell on what's going on in the political state that were in. Focus on what you've got right in front of you and appreciate it, spend as much time as you possibly can with your kids because if you continue to focus on the negatives that go on in today's society the worst case scenario may happen and you'd probably never have another opportunity or advantage that you have now to do so. I understand what you're going through because I am the same way with my family and I just recently got over worrying about the same things. I just try and live and enjoy them as much as I can laugh and even cry with them as often as I can. Hey maybe try going somewhere big, quiet and comforting it may help. I happen to find comfort being in hospitals and doctors offices. one of my biggest concerns for me right now is my overall health and dying being in hospitals or doctors offices just make me feel safe and secure whereas I know that if something health related and life threatening does occur, I'll have the medical attention a.s.a.p. which is why I'm working in a nursing home now so maybe try going to a church or volunteering at a shelter or community center and getting your kids involved, transfer them to a school closer to you.
I have health anxiety too, so I know what you're going through. Been to the ER 9x this year... It's good that you work in an environment where you're able to get medical help if you need it.
Thanks again, so much, for your thoughtful reply. Hang in there friend!
you have one life, and your life or your families could be in danger, that's a simple fact of life; as they say, living is dangerous! And if it all comes to an end then there will be nothing you can do about it. In the meantime there are a thousand little life hassles which will also stress you out. There is little wonder that your brain is over-heated! However there is something that you should be doing, and if you concentrate on that instead of all the bad things you may find a kind of peace. I dealt with this fear by making each day the best possible day ever for my kids. We laughed, enjoyed ourselves and had fun - as much as possible. We went places, long walks, swims, animal parks etc. and we enjoyed nature as much as possible. I still had one eye on the future in case it happened, and they got an education and some life skills. But I concentrated on the great bits of life and not the bad possibilities. Can you concentrate on that? How can you make everyone have the best and happiest day of their lives, every day? That's quite a task, but it's one I gave myself when I started getting anxious about my first born 26 years ago, and I am getting quite good at it now! If I wake in the night I deep breathe and plan how to solve problems the next day. I am always looking for opportunities to make the life we have better. You don't need time away from your family, you need to start thinking how you can make their life more fun.
Wow, you have such a positive outlook! You sound like a great parent. I've been counting each second with my family as a..I hate the word "blessing", so another word for that lol. I feel so so happy and complete when everyone is home. But I have terrible thoughts when my husband and son are gone. The *what-if's*. They take over my mind. This morning was the absolute worst. I just had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that it would be the last time I hugged my son and husband. I was completely hysterical. Then when my son got off the bus, I hugged him SO tight and loved on him much extra. When my husband got home, I ran up to his sweaty, stinky self as soon as he stepped foot in the door. I just felt a huge weight lift off like "we made it through today!" I don't know why my anxiety is suddenly so much worse than ever. I am really reaching out for help and i honestly feel like I need inpatient something but like you said, I'll be away from THE most important thing to me. And I don't know if I can do that. But at the same time, I feel like I need to help myself FOR them.
Sorry, I'm just rambling now🤐 thank you for your reply!
feel free to ramble away, everyone has those fears, but, as you say, yours are running away with you. Try to do lots during the day to take your mind of it. Do you do any exercise out of the house? That gives you a lovely release of endorphins which will make you feel better, and it will stop you being at home with your fears all day.
You are over thinking tablets can only do so much. I to was living in constant fear in fact I thought I wrote this head line last year.
I know it doest sound much when I say this but please try meditating be it breathing mediation or count from a hundred backward or imagining a flower in front of you but you need to slow down thats what I think . Stop watching the news they always make things sound much worse than what it really is. Learn to meditate and you will feel much better it's working for me and I was a nervous wreck paranoid of everything.
I can relate. The world seems like a pretty scary place and sometimes I wonder how people can just keep going on about their business as if everything is okay. I saw a brief clip about an incident today that made me feel anxious and depressed about the state of the world. However, we have to keep living our lives the best way we can. I would suggest that you stop watching the news and instead, focus on the here and now and on what is actually going on around you. Get grounded. If you look around you, you will notice that you are safe. Try getting involved with something local. Look for positive things. Notice the good and beauty around you. Start a gratitude journal. Do calm breathing exercises and visualize safety and beauty. Go for a walk. Do something productive. Write. If you are a person of faith, pray. Try meditation. Get involved in a project. Make a commitment to be on the "good" side and do something every day that makes the world a better place, even if it's only a small thing. It's too easy to get stuck in your own head; try focusing on someone or something else. Volunteer. And if you can't get unstuck, call your therapist and tell him/her that you are unravelling and need more help. Or, call a crisis line. BREATHE.
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