Only a small bit of appetite??? advice?

I still eat, food, regular meals everyday & I started going to the park and walking. I also seem to hate everything and everyone, not really like me. when did this happen and why? I recently got into a fight with someone over something really petty. I've been to psychiatrists and taken paxil, but the effects to be limited....i don't really take medication consistently because I don't like it, but I'm wondering if hating everyone and not wanting to eat go hand in hand???? At this point I have started taking st johns wort, but my inuition tells me there is some other cause for my body's changes. I feel hungry but just not ravenous and my tummy grumbles sometimes but also it feels like I cant seem to get up the energy to do things, except for calm activities like walking. I sometimes wish , this is a strange wish that I were pregnant because I think it would knock my body back into its natural state. I've been to my GP three times...in the last 4 years, each time to ask about my energy problems. I've sought healing through reiki,,...and I've been to talk therapy, but i never really finished with my talk therapist. I had a job, but I quit. I want to apply to grad school, but I'm very worried/annoyed/not sure what the hell is wrong with my energy. I now can afford only to go back to one more psychiatrist. I have already spent thousands of my own money and my mother's money on mental health people. I feel so frustrated like everyone else wakes up every day with this cushion of energy and health that guides them through their day.

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I went through the same thing. It's normal to lose your appetite with anxiett/depression so I drank protein shakes when I felt I couldn't eat and just snack here and there as much as you can (healthy snacks that is). I also started becoming irritable with everything and everyone which is really unlike me as well. Sometimes it's just how mental illness manifests itself. Once I started doing something about my anxiety I started getting less panicky and instead started becoming more angry, but my therapist said I should look at it in a good way because it signifies a change, even though it's not the change I wanted but it's still a step for recovery. Have you tried meditation at all? It took a while for it to help me but once I got the hang of it it helped me accept my emotions and tell myself it's okay to feel how I feel and then you can observe your feelings as just feelings and not truth. I dont like being angry but it's natural and it's your body trying to tell you something and meditation teached you how to listen to it properly and go from there

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thanks loeky, yes...I have not tried meditation really, but I used to meditate on the regular.