Feeling a bit bad again!

I haven't been on for ages and ages but recently I've started the whole health anxiety thing again and it's becoming a nightmare I can't stop thinking the worst about everything that happens. I've managed to keep myself away from google so I know I'm stronger in that sense. But I just can't seem to understand why I feel anxious and how I can get sudden anxiety when I'm feeling completely normal. This automatically makes me think something is wrong! Part of me knows that everything's okay but then another little niggling part of me (anxiety) fills me with dread and makes me sick to my stomach thinking that something is wrong! I'm fed up of feeling like I'm getting my life back on track then all of a sudden I feel like I'm losing my mind! I had a very traumatic experience 2 years ago now and I was very unwell afterwards. I don't think I've ever recovered from the fear that it will happen again. It leaves me exhausted! Sorry for the essay just needing someone in a good frame of mind to tell me I'm being silly! I wish I could just think logically but it's just not that easy sometimes 😔

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3 years ago

Hi. Well that was a very lucid post and shows good insight. The way I see it is like this - if I have say an infection in my throat and i am given medication - I would expect that I would be healed. However, sometimes we did not get the right medication or the right amount. So it might appear that the infection is gone but it is actually still there clinging on. And after a while it will reestablish itself again - maybe even worse than before.

Same with anxiety - it can appear it is defeated and cured - but it is clever, and has hidden more deeply than anyone suspected.

I think you are right to point to the traumatic event from the past - it is very likely that something associated with that has triggered the anxiety again. So its nothing to do with you being silly or imagining it - if you have the same symptoms and feelings as before then very likely the anxiety is back . You are not losing your mind.

That might not seem a very positive out come - but there is a positive angle. Previous treatment - I am assuming therapy - helped you, and it can again. Sometimes people leave therapy too early because the symptoms disappear.

Of course it may also be that you are having an isolated incidence of anxiety for some reason - only time will tell you if that is the case. If the symptoms and feelings persist well you know how to tackle them. Even better if it is just a temporary episode.

Karl