Hi, Hope everyone is well today.
I just thought I would have a bit of a vent today and I dont know if anybody goes through the same thing sometimes?
I've always been somebody with quite a short fuse, never suffered fools gladly and tend to linger on things longer than I should. I think it's this way of thinking that eventually pushed my body too far and I started suffering anxiety attacks. The past few weeks have been a bit rough. I'm going through consultations for redundancy, my partner has been quite stressed with his job, it sounds ridiculous but our dog is going through the hormonal stage and has been ruining furniture which is costing us money. We're both just worked off our feet with nothing but negativity around us at the minute. And I know I should be thankful for a lot we have but sometimes you loose the sense of balance when you feel down. I've found my mood has been horrendous, I've been aggressive, snappy, constantly tired, I'm struggling at work. I feel like everything around me is just rubbish and I can't figure out a way to get myself out of this frame of mind.
When I got home yesterday I felt like I'd been in a fight, my body was pounding, my throat was sore. And I started to recognise feelings that started when I had my first attack, but I think because I can handle my anxiety now I controlled it and it soon dissapeared, but it's made me realise that my anxiety is 100% related to stress.
I just find it really difficult to get out of a negative frame of mind. Has anybody else gone through this? I find myself bitter towards people that are genuinely happy because I never feel like. I look around at people my age and I see nobody feeling how I'm feeling. They're all gushing about how fantastic life is. And it makes me wonder, am I just dramatising things? Are things relaly not that bad and I just need to give myself a shake? If so, how do I do that?