2 years of hell

[dawners]

For the past two years I've been going through a mystery medical condition ive been slowly losing more and more mental status with feeling so detached and memory problems, ive been getting badveye floaters numbness and Tingiling in my hands and feet sleep problems, not bbeing able to sleep at night. And alot more ive been scared of lukemia and lymphoma but before all that i thought it was a brain tumor or cjd, well ive seen tons of doctors, had 3 mris 3 ct scans. And tons of different blood tests from cbcs to heavy metal tests ive had testosterone, cortisol, metabolic panels, c reactive protien, thyroid, and even more checked the only thing they found was low vitamin d ive bern taking a supplement to fix that but still no relief my vitamin d is currentlyup in the high numbers but great I'm still getting worse and I'm looking for help, i posted about this on this site over a year ago and sadly to say am posting again im worried this will kill me before i even get an answer.

[Scorpio71]

It seems perhaps it could be anxiety?

[robstitt]

Yes, I recommend a professional assessment for anxiety. You to match many symptoms. Let us know how it goes.

[CaptainCrunch]

Your brain is not your friend. It is just an organ and it can be malfunctioning. It doesn't care about you. It only cares about its own self preservation. But fortunately you do have authority over it no matter what alarm bells it is setting off causing you to feel such intense mental pain.

The brain can really make you feel crazy because what you are experiencing and feeling is very real to you.

Once I accepted and learned that I had OCD and over a length of time with medication and therapy and journaling did I start recognizing what I like to call the snake in the grass telling so many things to worry about. To fear.

It is a long hard process plus you really could have these other alignment but others go through the same alignments without the debilitating anxiety you are describing.

I still have to ask my wife for clarification... is this what we heard this person say or am I listening to the snake in the grass. I think my brain makes me a "glass half" empty kind of guy so once she shines her perspective on it I can see it from a different point of view. It is not easy. I can still feel the pain and see the logic of the worry. But I am learning a new way to live and new possibilities.

Please keep us posted. It is a terrible battle you are fighting but you are not alone.

[Agora1]

Hi dawners, is it a mystery medical condition considering all the scans and tests your doctors have done? It sounds like Health Anxiety. Your over worried condition regarding every symptom you manifest in your mind as being life threatening. Sometimes we don't get any answers, we just get reassurance from tests coming back normal. But to the anxious person, that is not always acceptable. We want to know that we aren't crazy, we aren't imaging that something serious isn't going on. We tend to blame the good doctors in that they must be missing something. And what if, they did find something and you were given a medication for it? Would you take it without having to check all the side effects and be hesitant in trusting you won't die from the cure?

Do you see dawners how this cycle of fear goes on and on. There is never a quick fix to anything we can imagine because we fear everything. The answer isn't more tests and scans, the answer is finding a way to help you in accepting this is an anxiety disorder. Getting a good therapist to help you through your fears is a start. Still go into your medical doctor for yearly or bi-yearly physicals but instead of counting the days till the next appointment, use that in between time to work on your anxiety.

If you don't get the help and guidance for your mental health's sake, you will continue writing a post on every year anniversary of how long it's been for you in hell. 2 years can easily turn into 10, 20 and beyond. Don't waste your life, don't let it go by. In this day and age, as robstitt stated, you can have a professional assessment for anxiety rather than more tests and scans.

You may be surprised in them finding the answer to your medical mystery condition. We will support you because we understand what it is like. My best to you moving forward.

[dawners]

Thanks for all the replys and support, i woke up this morning with extreamly sore red hands and am freaking out about lupus, which my mother has

[blackqueen65]

Just a thought but has your Vit B12 level been checked along with all the other bloods? Some doctors only bother checking it if your full blood count shows macrocytic anemia, but you can still have low B12 without it and tingling hands and memory problems are symptoms. It would be worth checking if it's been done and if not request it. If it has been checked, post the result as the cut off point for treatment is very low and you could still have symptoms even if they say it's normal.

[dawners]

My most recent tests have come back with a high crp and sed rate which has me freaking out about lupus which my mom has, lukemia and lymphoma which can cause high crp and sed rate