Major anxiety and depression

Hello. I'm Elliott. I have major anxiety and depression. Hoping to talk make some conversations and chit chat on here. Not feel so alone.

[Betha]

Hi Elliot you are not alone. I am here!

[Hidden in reply to Betha]

Thank you

[levymaria]

I also suffer from major anxiety and depression! You are definitely not alone. This website has helped me a whole bunch, are you taking any medicine or taking therapy/counseling for your anxiety or depression?

[Hidden in reply to levymaria]

Medications don't work for me, unfortunately. I have bad reactions. I'm not currently in therapy. Ive never really found therapy helpful. I feel kind of hopeless, ya know? I feel like I've tried everything. Im a lil bit lost. Sorry for sounding so pathetic

[levymaria in reply to Hidden]

Don't be sorry! You're not sounding pathetic just honest about your reality and what you've done so far to try and relieve yourself. How about massage therapy, taking hot baths with epsom salt, walking around your neighborhood for 30 minutes, working out, a hot-cold shower, meditation, yoga?

[Hidden in reply to levymaria]

Showers and walks are definitely my go to things when I feel anxious. It helps for sure. And yoga! I just need to push myself more, to be honest. That depression has a hold on me. But I'm slowly setting myself free 👍☺

[levymaria in reply to Hidden]

It is it's like a dark cloud hanging over your head! Hate it, but it can be beat! You can definitely do this stay strong and always come online if you ever feel like you're down this website definitely helps a whole bunch its like a little community of people going through your depression right along with you! 🤗

[Hidden in reply to levymaria]

Thanks so much for your kind words! I greatly appreciate it 😊✌We have to keep going. We all deserve happiness 👍

[levymaria in reply to Hidden]

Any time! Yes we all deserve happiness! 😁

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

If you can't take medication you should take Magnesium glycinate it helps with depression and anxiety.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I'll look into that! Thank you ☺

[Finglas-Boy]

Hi Elliott. Good to meet you. I only joined yesterday but the people here are really great. Am sure you'll find what you need on he site. Take care

[Betha]

So for me I have never felt like this. I will give you a little bit of my background. I am single and almost 40(god that leaves a taste in my mouth). I lost my pug my best friend of 16 years in March. Started seeing a therapist. My brother is rich has a huge home, 2 perfect kids, and drives a Maserati. I am lucky to afford a Rav 4. anyways around a month ago I began having pelvic pain. That pain came and went. I had a physical with my Gyno, 2 months prior everything normal as it should be. So I called the doctor and they squeezed me in. He ordered an internal ultrasound and everything came back normal. No cysts or tumors. Great! Of course during this period I was so afraid I cried every day. Kept feeling my stomach making sure I was not bloated that it was actually fat :). Studied about different treatments everything. My upper abdomen began to hurt and I was unsure of why. I was afraid to eat and then thought maybe it was me who did this. eating crappy drinking wine etc..So anyway I began to realize this behavior was also affecting my ability to smile. I no longer made plans because I was afraid I was going to die/treatment of some disease. I called my GP and the NP said that everything things normal but they will do a full extensive CBC on me. More then they have ever had done before. So I said great! But still nervous and crying every day. The GP/NP called me my blood work is perfect. Everything normal.

But of course I was yet to be convinced so the NP I mentioned a CAT SCAN. As many cancers and other diseases are not seen on a CBS and the ultrasound did not do stomach etc. She felt I did not need it. But she said she would talk to my GP and go from there. This past Friday the GP called me to review the tests and she did say that everything looked normal. But that she will order a CAT Scan to cover all bases. So all that is going though my head is why is she doing this? Is she lying? Did she see something she is not telling me? Is she only doing this because I mentioned it.

Yesterday I had an attack where I could not stop crying. I talked to my Aunt who is a nurse and her and my uncle suffer from anxiety and depression. She read over my results and feels that I am perfectly healthy. She could be doing the CT scan to satisfy me? Really I don't want that? I want her medical advice!

I have lost some weight because I am not eating in between meals, walking as much as I can and cut out sugar from my diet but of course I am thinking I have a disease of some sort. My physical symptoms range from stomach cramping, pins and needles, I have suffered from chest pains as well.

So here is my story! Yes its a lot, but it helps to discuss it!

[mysmugcat]

St John's wort is a natural herbal antidepressant but often interacts with other medicines, check if you take any regular medicines

[Danchef]

Hi Elliot i can relate feeling alone really doesn't help it sends me rocking back and forth all the time what do you do to keep occupied

[Hidden in reply to Danchef]

I'm sorry! It most definitely sucks. I try to do things that make me happy, though it can be difficult to even do the things I like. But I like to do artsy things - paint, draw, crafts. I find things to do around the house, usually there's always something to clean. My 3 year old keels me busy.

[Edgy]

Hi Eliott

I know what fixed me but not sure if it will work for others

I fixed myself with strong rigid diet and no meds

Edgy

[Cn82]

Just remember, you are not alone with this. People on this forum can give you lots of advice, and help, and their experience is invaluable. I find I have to really fight hard to go out and make an effort when I'm feeling low, but it does help. Walks, talking to people, and doing things to take your mind off things all help. Also being kind to yourself and giving yourself little treats can help too. I know it sounds a bit hippy, and I'm a very down to earth bloke, but it does help. Good luck and really hope things improve for you.

[Hidden in reply to Cn82]

Thank you ☺ I'm trying to take it one day at a time. Be happy for the little things. I'm determined to get rid of this anxiety, or at least lessen this anxiety. The support helps tremendously.

[2670 in reply to Hidden]

Hey there everyone. So I see so much support I'm overwhelmed. I'm 45. When I was in my early twenties I got a bad cold n cough. The cough wouldn't go away and as soon as I took medicine for it I had a major panic attack. Which of course I thought was death knocking on my young door. I had a two year old. I wasn't happy in my marriage. I went to the hospital by ambulance. Thought it was a heart attack. A week later I had another one. Hospital again. A week later another. It started to happen daily. Then just all day everyday. Over the next two years I suffered terribly. But. Even though my family mostly rejected me. And I couldn't get support hardly anywhere. These types of forums didn't exist then. I prayed. God guided me to books. People to speak to. Mostly strangers that struck up conversations here n there. And a commercial that came on at night wen I couldn't sleep. Testimonies of people getting better. It all helped. But I still thought I was dying or going crazy. Had every symptom. Every single one. Maybe new ones. Got every test. Brain. Bowels. Heart. U name it. I got it tested. Nothing was wrong. I was going nuts. Well. I ended up in a group therapy once a week. With 6 other women. They suffered for 18. 8. 5. Years. All of them. Had many years of suffering under their belts. Oh no. Not me I thought. I went a few more times. And decided to believe the therapist. It was my mind. My fears. My self doubts. Ok. I prayed more. God help me know how to get rid of this. I hate pills. So I never took one. Grinding my teeth. White knuckles. Numb tingling. Floating above myself. Vision blurred. Heart racing. Pain all over. Nauseous. Fainting feeling. And God says. Take the train to the city. Underground I thought??? No way God. But I did it. I took my daughter. I thought . Everyone knows. It must be obvious. Nope. Surely I'll die and then everyone who doubted me will feel really stupid. Nope. I kept challenging myself. Some days I couldn't leave the house. Some days I couldn't be in the house. I challenged myself. And then I made some big changes. I started to regain my confidence. By overcoming little challenges. I got better as fast as I got the panic. It just left. I never thought for a second I'd live through it. And I thought if I did I would be severely damaged mentally. Forever. I'm 45. Like I said before. I have 4 beautiful girls. Little one is thirteen. Big one is the age I went through this myself. I think that everyone has a different time frame of when they subconsciously start to think about death. In a real way. And some of us just can't cope right away. It's not a rational fear. But in our mind we can't stop thinking. It's coming. So our bodies go into panic mode. The age is not the thing. It happens to us at different ages. We need to just remember. God is love. He gave us Jesus. Jesus came to teach us to live our lives devoted to loving people. Orphans widows neighbors ourselves. He told us to pray for things. He said pray without ceasing. Pray in all ways. So cool. I'm totally fine. I definitely have had many many life struggles up to now. But. But. But. I'm a victorious overcomer. Because I didn't believe the lie in my head anymore . I turned to the truth. I'm not dying right now. And wen I do go. I meet Jesus face to face. When you are done. And yes. It will be over soon. You will handle all life can throw at you like a warrior. You will kill it. You will thank panic. And anxiety for making you awsome. Can't see it now. I know. But it's true. I pray in Jesus mighty name. Show them your glory Lord. Let the truth behind this thing be revealed. Defeat the fear in them. Push away the dark. Shine your light into their lives. Amen.

[Agora1 in reply to 2670]

Very beautifully said 2670, in our own time we will overcome the thoughts and fears of anxiety. In our own way, we will be strong and move ahead for our families, for ourselves. You accepted what you were given in life and in that it turned your life around. I am happy for you. God bless you x

[19malpas]

Ive only just joined this site i am to suffering from anxiety and depression for a long time & have tryed everything even accupuncture for 12mounths dñt work psyc wñts to change my tabs again to sertuline has anyone had any look with these.

[reinagrace]

HI Elliott I have major anxiety and depression also and just want you to know that you and everyone here are in my prayers. I call helplines when I'm really down, esp since I usually am at my worse in the middle of the night- i also have terrible insomnia- and there's no one to call at 3 a.m. I've recently looked into this website as a source of support and to give support , but it's a challenge for me who prefers to talk to someone, hear a voice. But those helplines get very busy and it's hit or miss to find someone that i feel is truly compassionate. I haven't even made a post yet, but i'm thinking of doing so. I wonder if anyone else has terrible insomnia?? in my case i sometimes don't sleep until 6 a.m. Well, Blessings to everyone here.

[Hidden in reply to reinagrace]

Hi there 🙂 I do have insomnia! Sometimes I'll be awake at night with anxiety and I won't be able to sleep. Do you take any sleep medications? I take benadryl at night to help me sleep sometimes.

[2670 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. 🙏🏼❤️

[dave1960moreton]

Hi Elliot I can understand how you feel. I have had depression and anxiety for many years and it is hard to deal with. I cannot sleep without medication and the gp"s are not very supportive at all they just say they are addictive. I have suffered with depression myself and it is so horrible people who have not suffered that way think it is just a case of snapping out if it. Obviously you would if you could. Comfort eating gets hold of you to ease the pain and loneliness. You don't want to mix with too many folk as they don't understand why you are feeling the way you are. It doeshelp to share but it is a very difficult illness to combat especially when you have had it for years. Getting out is helpful but when you have lack if motivation and energy it is very hard. The anxiety is hard as your nerves feel on edge and facing things is very hard. I don't like being on my owm when feeling depressed do you?

[Hidden in reply to dave1960moreton]

I definitely don't like being alone, to be honest. My thoughts overload when I'm by myself. I need someone to hold my hand through everything, it's lame. I have social anxiety to the extreme. It's embarrassing. Depression and anxiety is not something a person can easily snap out of, that's for sure. Not for me at least. I try and try, but I'm not sure how to get out of it completely. It's difficult to do anything when I'm sad, my interests don't really interest me.

[dave1960moreton in reply to Hidden]

Yes I understand everything you say. I find being alone us hard as my father passed away 8th April 2016 and my mother has vascular dementia and is in a care home. I am her main visitor and that is stressful. I am on antidepressants and mind relaxing drugs. Just had a low mood and that was dreadful with suicidal thoughts. So awful just trying to make recovery but so hard. Folk don't understand and I need diazepam GP says no so tried internet and got three lots of rubbish. How do you cope do you live alone?