Just looking for some support today. I have had anxiety disorder since I was 18 years old (28 now) and it has come and gone in waves. After a crazy amount of life changes a year ago I had my first episode of DP (but I always worry that maybe I'm having something else because it's hard to explain and I freak out that I may not be explaining it right). Today I woke up and immediately felt almost numb. Pressure in my head and that feeling of detachment like I'm looking at everything through a video recorder lens. I cannot relax into this feeling. I am trying sooooo hard to accept it and not add more fear but this is the hardest thing I have ever done because it's the scariest feeling I've ever experienced. It's almost like someone slipped a strong drug into my drink or something. When I have it I feel so lost and terribly afraid. I feel like I can't connect. Like I'm detached. Numb. Like my senses are dulled or almost like I'm located deeper inside my skin so it doesn't feel "right " when I touch things. I can still feel everything just in a Dulles way. I feel almost floaty and out of it. Swirly headed? Idk. It's almost impossible to explain. I know what's going on the whole time and don't lose my sense of mental awareness or anything like that. Have any of you had these feelings and been in a spot where you are just paralyzed by fear over it? I have a normal life. I'm happily married with a 3 month old baby. I'm a registered nurse. I just can't understand why I struggle with anxiety and now this DP. I feel lost 😢
I have tried antidepressants and hey make me worse. I have tried several with the same effect. Anxiety goes through the roof!
I know i just have to accept and keep on going. I'm just looking for support right now