I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety 10 years ago and with borderline personality disorder at the end of last year. I love day to day with all the symptoms including panic attacks, suicidal thoughts and petrified to answer the phone or call someone back except close family and friends. I'm 27 and have been working from 16. I left my job in August last year and haven't had a job since. My last job caused me to finally give up. I am happily married and want to work yet I got a call today with a job offer that I let go to voicemail. I never called back as I was too scared! I have had a mobile number call me twice since and it's causing me more anxiety and fear that it won't stop. It is only a casual job but sometimes I can't leave the house so I feel it won't be good to accept. The last 2 mornings I have woken out of my sleep with full body tremors and nausea. I just want to live a normal life and feel so guilty that my husband has to support me. Everyone keeps saying just get up and get on with it but why is it so hard to? I feel so bad making everyone worry! I'm worried about writing this but I found the site and thought I could get help or find someone else like me.