Hello support family...I am have been completely out of the loop lately trying to keep myself busy and focus less on the hell I am living in right now. I am so tired of being sick and tired guys. I feel like am taking all the right steps in the right direction and absolutely nothing has changed for the better. I have been following a better lifestyle, working on losing weight, decreasing my cigarette intake, taking my meds, and have stopped drinking sodas. I have lost 13 lbs thus far (293 lbs) still a long way to go but I can't even be happy about that because of the ongoing struggles I have. Continued shortness of breath, chest and arm tightness, sleepless nights, muscle aches, neck pains, chest pains, and the list goes on and on. I had my echocardiogram and the first thing the tech says is "oh you are too young to be in here for this. this had got to be anxiety". I understand that i am 29 but gosh these symptoms are REAL to me. I feel them daily and they significantly stunt my quality of life. After my test was concluded, the tech stated that my examination looked great but the cardiologist would give me an official reading. I am still waiting and going crazy at the same time. I had a nightmare last night and my heart raced for several mins I knew it was the end smh. I really just don't think I am strong enough for this battle. I am so afraid for my daughter not having a good mother to raise her. I know there are people who have overcome this my mother being one of them but I guess I am not going to be the warrior that she is. I am just ready to give up smh.