Ready to give up

[treyjeff]

I've been dealing with health anxiety since the end of my freshman year of college. Here I am, well into my junior year almost back to square one. I had it very bad when it first came to me after my freshman year. I was bed ridden and couldn't do anything. I thought something was wrong with my heart. Trips to the hospital, trips to every kind of doctor. Nothing. At some points I've had it under control but, for the most part it's been a struggle. I admit I could be more consistent with my therapy but I've taken my meds consistently as prescribed. Here I am now today speaking to you, ready to give up. I don't know what giving up entails. I just know I'm physically and emotionally tired of this. I want everything to be what it was before this. My head is swimming. My brain is so foggy I think it might be swollen. I wish I could cry but nothing comes out. I need some advice.

[Dolphin14]

I think Mayb you should make a point to stuck with your therapy.

Just my opinion and what's been working for me. I'm in therapy twice a week and take meds.

Talk out your problems and work on some new coping skills.

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How's the heart niw

[Weirdgorl]

Change of scenery change of diet. Walks,music.water helped me. I think the struggle in part of the hustle in life. You got this

[Darryl Partner]

The easiest way to prevent helpful change is to give up. All of us who are older (yes, I hear "OK Boomer") know that anxiety management is an up and down process, but, ultimately, life is worth living and the management of our anxiety is a difficult but doable burden and pain.

[DoggieLoverbon]

Health anxiety takes a physical toll. We all have experienced. I’ve had it since September and I feel drained, sometimes it’ll get better - but it always comes back. Just remember that you are not alone, you have a whole community who feels exactly how you feel. You always get mad at yourself because you question “why can’t I be normal?” Trust me, I constantly feel that on a daily. I’ll have small things happen and let them spiral out of control. I used to have so much fun, laugh a lot, now I can’t remember the last time I was truely happy. The last time I spent hours with friends and just laughed, enjoying the little things in life - without the voice in the back of my head saying “what if...” it sucks it does. But you are not alone, you’ll never be alone. We all die eventually, just how we go out is what scares us the most. But if it’s going to happen, it’ll happen regardless of how much we stress about it - at that point we’re limiting ourselves to our OWN happiness. We’re worried on a constant that this or that is going to happen, and we always realize there would be nothing we could do about it. So why not allow ourselves to breathe, smell the fresh air and just smile? We deserve that, after years or months of constantly worried - we need to take ourselves and our head back. We need to regain control of our life. We should never allow our brain to take such a mental and physical toll on us. Change your diet, try something new, do something spontaneous. Enjoy it! Because death is inevitable, as sad and sucky as that sounds. I hate to hear it as much as the next person with health anxiety. But it’s true.

[Kathush]

At the time you had it under control, what was different? Can you think of what you may have done differently that may have helped you? I have health anxiety as well and sometimes it has been crippling to me but ever since i started dragging myself back to therapy, i have been feeling a bit better each time i go. I say dragging only because it was a chore for me to even leave the house, but the benefit of it has made it well worth it. xx

[Willie211]

You are not alone. Millions share the same things and the same feelings. Accept it and quietly and slowly and gently move on. It will pass. I know all about this. All about it. Trust me. Know that you are not alone - and are in good company. It's stress and anxiety fooling you - like so many, many people. If you can - stop going to doctors as this just adds to your anxiety - looking for something to find. There's nothing find. Your body and tired mind is just reacting to stress. You are not alone --- and you WILL get better.