I have come to realize that who I am, who I see myself, and who I want to be, are all very different people.

I have come to realize that who I am, who I see myself, and who I want to be, are all very different people. I have been two weeks off of any medication other than my klonopin during anxious moments…which there are many. I do not believe I am bipolar. I am fairly certain that I am depressed more than not, which is odd as I have a phenomenal life. Perhaps that is part of the mental breakdown of it all. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I am in fact broken. And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened. For me, it’s already happened. Such is life.

I am going to give you a piece of advice... advice I wish I'd been told in guidance class back in high school.I wish our counselors had told us, 'When you grow older a dreadful, horrible sensation will come over you. It's called loneliness, and you think you know what it is now, but you don't. Here is the list of the symptoms, and don't worry—loneliness is the most universal sensation on the planet. Just remember one fact—loneliness will pass. You will survive and you will be a better human for it

[Beevee]

You aren't broken and anxiety can make you feel lonely, amongst a myriad of other feelings. The old you is buried beneath the symptoms of anxiety, which includes depression and just waiting to rise to the surface, once you let go.

If you haven't already done so, read Dr Claire Weekes' book, Self Help for your Nerves. It explains all you need to know about the effects of nervous illness (sensitisation) and why people continue to suffer because they fight the thoughts and feelings instead of learning to accept them which allows the mind and body to recover as nature intends. Acceptance will cure all anxiety related disorders. You just need to step out of the way of yourself and let the healing process begin. Been there, done that, got the T-shirt. 😁

[Hidden in reply to Beevee]

this book is good huh? I will give it a try

[Beevee in reply to Hidden]

If you are anything like I used to be, you will need to read it several times. Each time you do, you will begin to relate to the content and begin to understand the concept of acceptance, instead of fighting. It's about being a passive observer to the false thoughts and feelings created by anxiety instead of buying into them and trying to fight them off. Essentially, you are fighting yourself and just go round in ever decreasing circles which is extremely tiring and soul destroying. So, just learn to give up the fight.

In addition to the book, it is worth visiting a website called AnxietyNoMore.co.uk which also "promotes" acceptance as the way to the natural cure over anxiety. It was set up by an ex-sufferer called Paul David who has also published a couple of books which you may find helpful too. and complement those written by Dr Weekes. Visit the blog too which contains heaps of advice and guidance from the many people that have recovered or in the process of recovery through acceptance. It takes time to develop this new attitude and for your mind and body to sort itself out but it does work.

[Rinoman1]

Hang in there try to connect with either family or friends. Or find new ones. It takes some effort. But doesn't anything worthwhile take effort. If it was easy. Anyone could do it. Because anyone can do it especially you fine sir. Best of luck