My story started last November when whilst in Spain I suddenly one evening suffered what I can only describe as a huge panic attack, it was an awful night but I got through it, mainly thanks to my partner calming me down. Following that I decided that it must have been down to the alcohol I consumed the evening before, so I stayed off the drink for a few weeks. All seemed to be fine until the middle of December when I started getting intrusive and violent thoughts that caused me great anxiety. Since then I have been suffering from constant anxiety and depression it seems, with the occasional panic attack thrown in, normally when I am going to do something out of the ordinary. My mind is seems to go crazy and I put all sorts of pressure on myself to be normal!
The last 7 months have seemed like a bit of a daze really, but since returning to the UK in March I was starting to feel a lot better, until last weekened when the anxiety and panic took hold once again. This is when I came across this site and the forum. I'm not really sure where this journey is going to end yet, but i'm determind to get my life back on track.
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Not yet, I have only just registered with one, I have had a bit of a mind set that I can sort this problem out myself, and to an extent it has worked, but I'm seriously considering getting outside help now yes.
Hi
I suppose anxiety comes and goes if we are prone to it.the important is to learn to manage the anxiety.i ve been suffering for 14 years.i m having a different attitude now,a bit like yours,I m fed up with panick attacks and this must stop don t let the anxiety take over my life.you re doing well.hugs
same here its comes and goes sometimes im down then high its mad it just takes over ur body makes u do stupid things i hate panic attacks u always think ur going to die i used to take thing with the flow wish i could do that now x
Hi,
I am new to the site also. I have suffered with depression/anxiety for donkey's years. I am lucky to know my triggers. New places, new faces faze me, (social anxiety) but I wont let it beat me.
I have been on medication for a long time, but my saviour was C.B.T. (cognitive therapy behaviour) also assertiveness course.
You appear to be a strong person and I wish you look along the path to recovery.
Your story is very similiar to mine. I was fine until one Sunday I suffered a panic attack, just like yours the day after a night of drinking. That was 2 years ago. I then suffered with anxiety and had to avoid places that served alcohol. My mind associated that bad monent with a public bar. At first my anxiety was really bad however after 2 years it is not too bad and I do manage to lead a normal life. So what helped me to beat it ? well I bought anxiety books from Amazon, attended CBT, invested in self hynosis mp3's to listen to when I am in stressful situation, changed my diet, and I am taking Mirtazapine 15mg each night. I attacked anxiety at all levels and I think I am winning. I recently attended a Hypnotherapist, however not too sure if she helped or not.
The thing that I realised at an early stage is that you are not on your own, many people suffer from this, some admit it others don't tell anyone.
So do try different things, and think you will get better soon
Hi Kevin thanks for really positive message. I've waited for cbt since April on the nhs so I decided to try private. Only trouble is I have to travel couple of miles to appointment. I'm going to try my best to get there though. I'm on mirtazapine, but also just come off valium on Tuesday. I was in Spain in March but thats when panic started again through not having rest. I admire your determination, me too, but it is hard sometimes.
I have been taking 15mg of Mirtizapine for about 8 month with no side effects. I take one just before I go to sleep, within 10mins I am sound alseep. The doctor told me not to read the side effects paper that came with the drug otherwise I would never take them. I agree with the doctor. A thought for you, it might be your anxiety telling you not to take a drug that was designed to help you. A circle you have to break. The benefit is I get a good nights sleep
please do not hesitate to ask me more about this drug
Kevin
Welcome Paul.
As Laura suggested I would go and get some advice from your GP. It may be medication is required, or they could refer you to a therapist on NHS to help.
Personally I find medication helps me, as it feels like I am doing something about it, along with counselling to tackle the underlying issues. I had my first spate of anxiety 10 years ago, it lasted for approx 6 months then I had it under control for around 7 years. It came back with post natal depression, then again this year after a lot of stress at work and personal family issues.
We are all in the same boat, desperate to fight this thing. Sometimes I wonder if us fighting it so much actually makes us more anxious! Should we give into it for a time and see where it leads us? I always think it is my body telling me it has had enough for the moment and needs a bit of help, whether that is resting/taking medication/taking herbal remedies or counselling.
I hope you get the help you need and wish you luck with this
While I applaud your attitude to fight this, really don't feel like you have to do it alone. I felt that when my anxiety started in not dissimilar circumstances to yours. Unfortunately I was very young and I didn't understand what happened to me, with the result that I got a lot worse before I got better. I think if I'd sought professional help earlier I wouldn't have sunk so low and it wouldn't have been so hard to struggle back to normality. I wish you all the best with it. You have a great attitude and I'm sure you'll easily fight it.
The hardest part of it at the moment is not so much anxiety but my irritability with those around me, particularly my partner who I live with, i'm wondering if this is a result of the months of suffering this problem, and a build up of mental pressure? I just seem to be really snappy for no good reason, and small things get on my nerves....Has anyone experienced this at all?
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