My anxiety nightmare.

[Emma143]

Hi, I'm new here, but not new to anxiety. I've been on antidepressants since I was 27, and now I'm 44. I had a breakdown and was put on Clomipramine. It has always been good, but for a week now, I've felt awful, like all the nerves all over my body are standing up and like i'm going to suddenly go into a fit. I have a gagging feeling and my breathing feels affected like I want to sigh all the time, just feel so weak.

In the past if I have tried to come off my tablets, I have felt like this, so went back on them, and felt fine, but I haven't stopped them, and still feel so ill. Don't know whether to up them or not, or wait to see the doctor. When I was 27, I was put on 250mg, but have been on 40 mg for years now.

I lost my mum last May, and it has really affected me, as we were so close. I used to look after her and lived with her. I miss her so much and think of her every day, but I've only really in the past week, got this anxiety. When she died, it was depression, but now it's turned to anxiety.

Does anyone else feel these feelings? it's like an agitated state and I can't relax. Feel like I want to get an iron and get the nerves to lie down flat again.

[sps10]

I would see your doctor about your medication. If this has come out of the blue far after the passing of your mother, it's possible that you may need an alteration of your medication.

Take deep breaths, think about the good in your life and of the things you have accomplished.

[Agora1]

Hi Emma143, I tend to agree with sps10. This sounds like your medication is no longer working. I would not increase the dosage without talking with your doctor. It would just make it harder to get off it or wean over to something us. Once we have been on drug for years, it tends to become ineffective. It happened to me, I thought I was losing it. How could something that always kept me even keel now put me over the edge with panic. My body had become dependent on the medication. I hope you see your doctor soon and get this straightened out and then maybe some therapy of the loss of your mother. My sincere condolences to you. Take care

[Emma143 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for your advice.

I thought exactly what you said, how could something that I felt so good on, not work any more.

I will go back to my doctor and get it sorted. I hope you find some peace soon with the way you are feeling too.

Take care!

[Evelynarnold]

Hi there, yes I can definitely relate! Nerves are so on edge and getting an iron to flatten them is a good way to describe it. My dad died and the pain and suffering is so traumatising!! I'm doing the haven technique! You can find it online. Paul McKenna takes you through a form of visualisation, it's easy and not time consuming. I've never been able to relax. But this does help. Give it a try and let me know how you get on. I feel your pain and hope you can relax the anxiety as it's so tiring isn't it, best wishes to you.

[Emma143 in reply to Evelynarnold]

Hi Evelyn,

Thank you for your reply,

I will give the Paul McKenna thing a try. Glad that you can relate to the way I'm feeling. I will let you know how I get on. Best wishes to you too, and I hope that this technique continues to help you.

[Evelynarnold]

Great!! Hope it helps you!! I definitely feel a lot calmer. Thinking of you.