I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself. I am a 23 year old female Iv always needed counseling Iv always been a sensitive hypochondriac ... When I was younger I made my parents hide scissors because I was petrified of cutting my ear off... I carry a thermometer with me everywhere I go ... A year ago I read a post about someone getting HIV on Facebook that I went and got tested for it... I went to a new PMD and they told me to start taking lexapro for my anxiety...Four days in to me taking the medicine I had a suicidal thought I freaked out so bad that I took one more pill than just completely stopped taking it. I called the doctor that morning and all she said was go to the hospital .... I started feeling not normal I was crying all the time I was having horrible thoughts so finally I called my old PMD and he felt horrible he told me I should've never been given lexapro because my anxiety wasn't that bad and I wasn't depressed, but unfortunately now I am... Back to the story I than went to a psychiatrist and he prescribed me with klonopin, but I am now petrified to take that ... I than started feeling normal again I didn't take the medicine or anything and thought okay well I'm back well a week later I started having very very horrible intrusive thoughts .. I started counseling I got diagnosed with OCD anxiety, Iv been having intrusive thoughts for 2 weeks now .. Every single day ... I don't feel normal I don't want to go out I'm petrified I'm going to jump off a bridge even tho I know I don't want too. I'm scared I'm becoming syzophrenic or having a psychotic episode ... I just want to be my normal happy go lucky self again. These intrusive thoughts are scaring the crap out of me ever since this lexapro incident I haven't been the same ? This is my last hope Iv read everything I can which was prob a horrible idea .... I just need to know if this gets better I am annoyed with the suicide thoughts cause I love my life to much they just won't go away !!!