Well I woke up fine. Got a shower, brushed my teeth, got my son ready for school. Took him to school and then BOOM major panic attack this time to the point I felt lowest of lows. I am so depressed about having to depend on a medication to make me happy just because of my cycle. I would rather just have them take my ovaries out. I spoke to my OB and said I thought I had a progesterone intolerance and I dont think I have enough Estrogen to balance out. All he said was well that could be true but we have no way of knowing. I have lost nine pounds in a week, feel dehydrated constantly. I feel like a worthless mother, like my kids are better off with their dad or my aunt. How am I supposed to love them like they deserve feeling like this? They are my world and I would do anything for them and they are all I have. I know Im not the only person who has this but in my mind I am. I dont want it to ruin my family or my relationship. I get scared they will take my kids away from me for having depression. All I want is to rewind time to a few months ago when I was happy, I dont even know who the hell I am anymore.