I cant help feeling down, i miss my job, i know i was only there for 2 months, but after 25 years of not having a job because i was raising my children ( 4 on my own) i felt part of life again, and loving being back with horses, until my anxiety and nerves got the better of me and i had to go home unwell 2 weeks ago, i went back last week to be told it would be best for me not to return to work for my own good. I feel like a complete failure and such a loser. The girl i worked with posts pictures of herself on FB on the horses i used to look after, and looking at them depresses me so much, that i just feel like crying. I dont want to go and visit the stables because i dont know what has been said about me, and i dont want people looking at me different as if ive gone off my head. All i do now is just sit in the house, sometimes just looking out the window, not even getting dressed most days. I just dont know what to do anymore, it feels like im not good for anything, horses was my life really, i dont know anything else because i used to work with them years ago before having kids and wanted to go back and resume my career. Now i know ive not got the nerve for it anymore, there's nothing left for me to do. So sad atm
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