I am 55 ill health and only lately found a passion which I know would of helped with my mental health. I love learning to play Guitar and all those days I drank alcohol mainly because I was insanely bored. I feel I missed out on so much life I could of enjoyed. I cracked up lost it completely and hurt so many people lost face with friends and family. I could control my anger but I was severely bullied mainly by my Father and because I was having nervous breakdowns I was bullied further by idiots that could see I had absolutely no confidence and it shows hugely. Life is short and you young ones do not let people get to you or let them difine who you are . Get help asap . What ever you do not bottle things up because it will come out in ugly ways it will fester and pop.