I feel like Ive drove everyone crazy with my problems around here and everyone think Im not seeking proffesional help,but in reality Im really seeking and I dont look for things on the internet,meaning that I dont diagnose myself,my doc does. But I have to wait so until then I calm down by talking here about them and asking people if they felt the same. So im sorry if I annoyed someone,but I try to live with this anxiety,because it never was this bad. So ive been diagnosed by my family doc with hyperthyroidism and other than that,a urinary infection. In rest,Im very fine. But Ive researched it and I found out that my DP/DR and my anxiety and insomnia and lack of appetite/wight loss can be caused by my thyroid. And my doc. said no wonder I feel bad and she send me to a endocrinologist. But thats in another 2 days and I have to wait and I feel like Im going to lose my mind. Please,tell me Im not alone. I feel like nothing is real at all,I question everything from the fact that im crazy to the fact that Im actually dreaming. I sometimes wonder if I had a psychotic episode and I didnt knew about it. I can remember every moment of my life from my oldest memory until today. Even tho I feel very confused and I have these moments when I feel ok but then I feel very detached and I question if everything is real or where I am or who am I,and I know the answers but still,it feels very odd. I feel like my home isnt my home,or people around me are not familiar and other things.Even words ,i know words but I feel like they are not real. I dont know how to say.I feel like in a dream. Even my voice seems like its not mine. I actually think I have delirium or schizofrenia and I feel sick because of my thoughts. I feel like my grandma when she died of cancer and she was delirious. What if Im delirious too? I mean,are you aware if you are delirious? Because even in my badest moments,I can think clear,I have no hallucination ,I have some trouble with feeling exhausted and tired and worn out. And sometimes,my anxiety spikes,wich is odd because I havent had moments of fear for 3 weeks. But still,does this sound like Im mentally ill or anything? Because,I really think its my thyroid . Ive read a post (https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/enlightened-living/201112/anxiety-disorder-or-hyperthyroidism ) and it feels like this is me,right there,only with stronger symptoms. I worry and Im at the point where I dont want to love ike this anymore. I dont want to die,I want to fight,but I want to know what Im fighting.My therapist gave me her email adress and she said i could leave a message,and I really want to,but I have no idea what to say. I just want to know Im not alone and Im normal and my mental health is okay,at least if its not okay,it would be because of my thyroid. Any advices,anything.