Need reassurance

[Chala555]

I know its bad to keep seeking reassurance. Its like a drug, it turns into an addiction. But please tell me im not going psychotic!!! Everything around me including myself feel like something that doesnt exist. Like im just here. My anxiety level is through the roofs. My mind is freaking out but my body isnt letting me freak out. Like its trying to fight the feeling. And im scared that im losing fear and that ill go crazy. I feel that if i dont have something to worry about ill end up going crazy or schozophrenic. I hate this feeling.

[HopingCat]

You are not going psychotic. I have been dealing with this for 5 months now. It's called depersonalization/derealization. And apparently for some it comes from anxiety. It's the devil but keep fighting. Also I recovered from this hell once before when I was a teen and 18 years later it came back and I'm fighting again.

[Chala555 in reply to HopingCat]

HopingCat thanks for the reassurance. What is your way to manage this hellhole. It hits me harder when i first wake up and when im about to sleep at night

[HopingCat in reply to Chala555]

I am so focus of blocking the freak soul leaving body freak attacks that I ignore the crap out of the other horrific symptoms which is hard because this hell is on top of me all day long for 5 long months. Who did this hell hit you? Came out of nowhere like me?

[Chala555 in reply to HopingCat]

HopingCat no i did meth about 4 months ago and havent done it since. After i recovered the effects, i had another major panic attack and left me feeling like this since

[HopingCat in reply to Chala555]

Well when I was 18 I got it from Weed. First time smoking and never again touched it. This time around I got it from thin air. Came out of nowhere like a demon. And here I am. Stuck in hell.

[Ian17]

Don't worry, Reassurance does make you feel better but only for a short time. Believe me your not going crazy although it feels like it. Depersonalisation is a horrible feeling. Just comes on anytime. I find laying down for a bit and close your helps. I get a weird like jaw tension feeling with it too. Keep fighting won't happen over night but you will get there. 👍

[Chala555 in reply to Ian17]

Ian17 keep fighting bro. Thank you

[Sfqueen]

You are going to be okay I tell myself that everyday sometimes I think how about if I do something and I can't help it it's so scary but we are not crazy that's for sure

[Chala555 in reply to Sfqueen]

Sfqueen and you will be okay too. Thank you and good luck

[skyraknight]

Sounds like you may be affraid of letting go of something or to accept something or somr reality that you became conscious of.

[Chala555 in reply to skyraknight]

skyraknight what do you mean?

[skyraknight in reply to Chala555]

That I don't know. Perhaps you may be redefining what reality really is and what it means to you? Because the reality does change and when it does we may become overwhelmed.