I JUST WANT TO FEEL NORMAL AGAIN

[Lovely85]

I am so tired of feeling like this, I can't live like this anymore. I don't even like going outside at times and  I have a busy seven year old who needs me, but I just want to stay in bed all day, I know this is not me this is not normal, this anxiety shit is messing with my daily activities. I can't do anything ugggghhhhhhhh

[Lisahelen]

Hi, ive just looked through a few of your previous posts. Has your dr run a full blood test for you with b12 folate etc 

Reason i ask is because i was much like you not so long ago and was diagnosed b12deficient. Aches and pains, gerd, neck clicks, tummy problems, anxiety, tiredness, snuffy nose but no cold.

[Lovely85 in reply to Lisahelen]

No haven't had a b12 test done

[Lisahelen in reply to Lovely85]

Take a look and see if you can identify with the symptoms, not saying this is the same for you but its worth looking. I had no idea what was happening to me, just knew something wasnt right, but when diagnosed i researched it and it all made a lot of sense.

[Lovely85 in reply to Lisahelen]

Thank you ......I will

[Hidden]

I'm having issues too. And a 7 year old as well. The game of life is kicking my ass and I feel so blind I just can't make sense of anything. I feel so so alone and it hurts. It hurts and it's really quite miserable. I wish I could trust somebody. Like really trust somebody but I just can't. I know they say you can't give up and because I haven't killed myself yet I think I haven't. I feel so messed up. Life and "love" is fucking crazy and I wish something made sense to me and felt.  Hang in there and just do your best to stay calm which is easier said than done. I'm lost too. Be careful. 

[Alan_98 in reply to Hidden]

Hang in there both of you, I'm sorry to hear about what you both go through, don't lose hope and keep going, things will get better okay 😊 I know it doesn't seem like it but it will, one way or the other 

[Lovely85 in reply to Alan_98]

Thanks

[Lovely85 in reply to Hidden]

Mary I really know that feeling.....it's very hard trying to stay positive when you are having all these thoughts and symptoms going on with your body.. I hate it as much as I try to relax I can't this is an everyday thing for me now...

And I know that I need help and I hope that we can get through this soon.

[Love_war17]

Same here some days I can shake the feeling other days my thoughts are RACING . It makes me doesn't want to communicate with people maybe you should seek counseling I started last Wednesday since it was my first time it helped a little but I'm looking forward to more therapy try doing activities keeping busy . Write in a journal when you feel your thoughts coming on . Also I don't know your religion but pray maybe tell your mind everyday "you will get through this" " these thoughts are not real ,I can move forward I will move forward" 

GOOD LUCK 

[Lovely85 in reply to Love_war17]

Yes that's my next thing that I will start to do is get therapy. I really don't like being around people at all now. I'm actually looking online now. I pray everyday and night before I go to bed, praying this will all be over soon and I can get back to my daily activities that I use to do. 

[Hidden in reply to Lovely85]

Fuck it. I don't care anymore. BYE

[Lovely85 in reply to Hidden]

Hey mary are you ok

[Hidden in reply to Lovely85]

Yeah. Got back from the bar. More bullshit. I'm not a lover. So who cares.