I just want to feel normal again!

[Michele_B]

Last summer I had my first experience with anxiety. I was at work on a random Friday when all of a sudden I felt very weird. I had a hard time breathing and my chest started to hurt. I seriously thought I was having a heart attack. I left work and went straight to the ER where they shoved a couple baby aspirin down my throat and hooked me up to monitors. They kept me there for several hours watching the monitors and asking me all sorts of questions. Right before they discharged me, the doctor hit me with "have you ever had anxiety?". My immediate response was "no, never".

Long story short...two cardiologist follow-ups and several appointments with the GP later and I am on a daily med for...yep, you guessed it...anxiety. I'm on week 3 but still have the awful anxious feelings but I'm told it can take up to a month before I start to feel better. I just want to feel normal again. I don't even remember what that feels like anymore!!!

[Hidden]

I feel for you

I'm the same, since my c section 11 weeks ago I've been the same and had every tear under the sun

I'm so dizzy, which doctor today said it's anxiety and thankfully gave me diazepam which so relaxes me

I have had MRI and ct scans to check for abnormalities but all clear thankfully

Drs think it's all anxiety related

It's bloody awful sometimes, I get really shakey and my nerves give out then I get more dizzy and then cry

[Michele_B in reply to Hidden]

Same here! I've had my boss literally steer me into my office, sit me down, and turn my light off and tell me to relax. Thats how bad my anxiety gets sometimes. My poor work family...they take the brunt of it. But they have all been great! It helps when people know what you're going through so that they don't think you're just a total nutcase.

I hope yours gets better! Glad you are on a med that relaxes you. That's so important when you feel REALLY anxious!

[Hidden in reply to Michele_B]

I find work family are amazing

U can cry in front till your hearts content!!

Never in my life did I think I'd ever feel like this

I feel useless to my 2 boys

[Michele_B in reply to Hidden]

I know the feeling. I am sure you are not useless to them though. We are our worst critics.

I do hate the way it makes me feel though. And some people don't understand....they'll ask "what do you have to feel anxious about?" and thats just it, sometimes there are no triggers. Which is soooo hard to explain to people that just don't get it.

Hang in there and just be the best parent you can be!

[mdooms]

Michele_B,

I know how you feel. Been there and defeated it. I to was put on medication but only for a short duration of time due to my choice. Medication has its purpose and can help. One thing I want to mention is even on a medication, you have to retrain your brain during treatment. This is the hardest thing to accomplish but not impossible! There is not one pill that fixes it all. Only you and time can do this. Dr Elaine Ryan's free basic Anxiety course online is what taught me and she is great. For a week I watched her daily videos and literally practiced what she was teaching and low and behold, I started to believe in myself that I can suppress these symptoms and feelings and accept them for what they are. All of us on this forum suffer from Anxiety or have rehabilitated from it. Our brains have been taught this behavior as a habit and now we must retrain to correct and rid ourselves of this bad habit. It takes time.....lots of it and discipline. Don't fight the anxiety and the symptoms that accompany it. Just accept them and you will see in time soon this shall pass. Trust me. Look up Dr. Elaine Ryan and take her course. I encourage everyone on this forum to do so. I am on this forum heavily so if you want to chat, just message me. God Bless and take care.

[Michele_B in reply to mdooms]

I will DEF look her up! Thank you for the tips! I was very hesitant on being put on a daily med. I didn't want to do it. And still don't want to. But I also don't want to feel the way I was feeling every day anymore. I am willing to try just about anything! I even tried acupuncture for a couple of months. It was relaxing at the time but I really felt no long-lasting effects. The only thing I really haven't done is therapy. I would certainly be willing though!!

[Judy1068]

I sympathize with all of you. I have had anxiety for over 20 years now and developed agoraphobia because of it!! I finally overcame the agoraphobia years and years ago but it was a very scary time. I hate taking meds and constantly fight the drs to try and heal me as natural as possible. Unfortunately I have a lot of medical issues going on so now its so scary and hard because of the scary symptoms I get on a daily basis you dont know what your facing and of course sets off anxiety, The worst thing for your anxiety is stress and one of the best things is a really good counselor. My heart goes out to all of you and I hope all of you find out whats wrong and get better soon !!

[_sincerelynina]

Same here that's all I think about how it feels to be normal again. .