Can anyone else relate?

[chick765827]

Hello...I am new to this site. I have searched for support groups for years near where I live and nobody seems to think anxiety is a debilitating disease enough to need support. Basically, I feel as though my life has dramatically stopped 7 years ago. I started suffering slowly from some anxiety and then over the years it built up and became full blown panic disorder and depression. I feel nauseous almost all of the time....I have no life. I can't go anywhere or do anything fun. I only weigh a mere 100 lbs because I can't eat. Nobody seems to understand...people would just rather say I have an eating disorder...which I don't...I love food and I don't fear food....I just feel sick ALL of the time and I cant eat. I have been to the doctor and had several tests done....all were normal. My dr just keeps trying me on antidepressants which make me sicker and make my mind even more disturbed. Can anyone else relate to this? Has anyone else tried so many different antidepressants, but have gotten worse and not better?

[Anxious2befree]

Maybe be try without pills and see a psychologist as it's helped me a lot. Taking medication is not good for some. I personally won't take it as I'm determined to beat it without medicating myself and my psychologist recommended not taking meds. I was like you just kept losing weight, not eating, nauseated all the time, vomiting and more. Now I take Acimax and can eat, no nausea and feel much better. I have good days and bad days but it's taken me months to be able to leave the house and step by step I'm getting there and hopefully back to work soon. You need to reassure yourself your ok  

[chick765827 in reply to Anxious2befree]

Thanks for your reply...I am just like you I want to beat this without meds...but unfortunately where I live there are no good shrinks. I see a licensed therapist and all she keeps telling me is "just keep giving yourself the self help talk"....I do do that more than anyone knows but it doesn't make it go away now does it? I try to fight it, but when you can't eat and all you want to do is throw up it is hard to fight something that is invisible and comes from within.

[Anxious2befree in reply to chick765827]

Try not to fight it but learn that it's going to be there and everyday it will get a little better. Reassure yourself you are ok Distract yourself by doing the housework or go for a walk, listen to music or read a book. You can beat it but it takes time. 

[chick765827 in reply to Anxious2befree]

I do all of those things actually..I live on 22 acres so I am able to walk around in a peaceful private setting but I guess I'm just so tired of being sick if that makes any sense. I want to feel good inside for a change, I want to get in my car with only hunger in my stomach...not that seasick feeling...and go anywhere I would like. I want to enjoy life again with my sons...but it seems like it will never happen

[Mrworrymaster in reply to chick765827]

I've been going through this for 6 months now, so I can only imagine what you're going through after years. I wish I had a magic answer for you, heck I wish I had one for myself. But, I find peace in knowing that others have beaten their anxiety, it just takes work. From what I've read, anxiety like ours is a learned response. You've trained your body for years to be overly stimulated. So give yourself a break, it's going to take time to un-learn those habits. Think positive, be positive, trust that you're ok.

This is what I'm trying to tell myself anyhow. I'm struggling badly with health anxiety. But, I get glimpses of happiness here and there. Don't lose hope!

[chick765827 in reply to Mrworrymaster]

Thank you...and I do have some good days and I get out as much as possible on those days! But, I do wish I could teach myself to stop this craziness...it is a never ending battle & I hope you get the upper hand on it before it turns into years  like mine has. I pray every single day that maybe just maybe I can find the light at the end of this dark tunnel.

[Mrworrymaster in reply to chick765827]

My heart goes out to you. I understand the struggle you're going through and applaud you for bravery.

[chick765827 in reply to Mrworrymaster]

Thank you...