I am speaking from My heart about my experience with anxiety...
I really dont know what to do. Ive felt like this before but it feels worse then most days.
I fell asleep like at 10 last Night and i woke up at 2 with sweats and racing/Pounding heart. I got up went to the bathroom and prayed and took deep breaths and All i felt inside was nausea and My heart Throbbing as if it wanted to Jump out and Run away. I was shedding tears and asking God To Please help me overcome this fear and thoughts of death or that something bad would happen to me. I wanted to jump into cold water and just snap out of it. But i thought about my kids and i said to myself NO, NO I CANNOT ANYMORE i need to fight for my LIFE. So i went to the room and it felt so UNREAL. i was touching things and saying to myself this is real. Iam here. this is NOW. and i just couldnt snap out of it!! I ran into bed grabbed my Husband and cried on him (While he was asleep) he woke up & he held me tight. he knew what was going on and said to me "its ok baby fight it" i was extremely shaken like a poor puppy in the rain. I couldnt sleep at all till 4 am. So morning comes and i woke up at 8:30 am and was very very dizzy eyes were blurry and very heavy. Idk what was going on but i was stumbling and i was very lightheaded. So yeah anxiety and panic kicked in. I was freaking OUT that i thought i was going to die from a brain aneurysm.... Sigh anxiety smh. I was fed up and all day ive felt like crap. Now its 9:30pm and iam still dizzy and butterfly feeling in my stomach is making me feel sick. I took an advil PM because it seems to be the only thing that KNOCKS ME OUT TO SLEEP!!!! 😤😴
I see a therapist in 3 days and my General Doctor in a week for Blood work etc... Iam relieved i finally get to see a doctor and therapist But anxiety has me thinking i will never get better and it will ONLY GET WORSE. 😭😥 Iam drained and i keep getting chest pains i dont knew if its because i have gas or air bubbles but its very scary also i have these sharp pains in my head that come and go. And my neck also is hurting all due to anxiety issues. And now dizziness? Ive been getting dizzy not all the time but its been happening a few times. And iam scared i might have a brain tumor or illness. Why? Why cant i just realize that this is all anxiety and fear And i CAN easily get over this in time?.... Why is it hard to Move on from this? Why cant i just feel like a normal Human being?.... What is normal though? I dont know how it feels to be normal anymore! My life is ruined and iam only 26 years old and ive been Suffering from this since i was 19.... God almight please heal me and my fellow supporters in this Group. Heal us from all this pain and suffering we go thru on day to day basis. God is amazing and Good all the time. I will continue to have strong beliefs in my lord jesus christ. I know he will bless me with healing and i will be back to my old self. Just better.
Have a Good evening everyone You will be in my prayers.🙏❤
P.s sorry for the very very long post. Just had to express how i really feel and experience with anxiety.