I was bullied by my father and I mean bullied everyday and ridiculed. Went to school I was bullied. Went to boy scouts The captains goffer or sergeant bullied me until I broke down in tears so I stopped going even in work I was picked on. Some times I fought back in school I beat up my bully and it went to my head and thought I could fight the world and got my arse kicked many of time. I am a bit angry because my son who I love to bits is borrowing a lot of money , he is paying me back but he borrowed £450 over the last few weeks paid me back £300 but yesterday wanted a tenner today 20 I know hi will have it back but I haven't had lodge off him and he likes to be warm so I am putting money in the meter more than usual and he likes his munchies because he smokes a lot of skunk. I hate saying no because I know he is finding life hard and he is so social awkward. I tend to think like this when I feel I am being taken for a fool. I over react because of past and tend to remember all the bullying and harsh words said to me. I think I was a sensitive kid with a good memory specially when I got hurt emotionally. My son has also a temper we both have and I don't want to spoil what we have because I know he is feeling depressed. He has put me in hospital and I him he has scars and I had to stay in hospital for a badly twisted hip. We both cannot afford to go to prison for a few reasons mainly losing our home and huge cuts to out incomes. He also gets more money than me because I have a car and bills to pay for. His mother is also very good to him but she is working and is making very good money on the side. I must put my foot down because I am not spending my savings going skint and not being able to buy things for my hobbies which is guitar playing the strings and magazines cost and the internet my phone and other treats. I think he plays on my constant worrying about him but I think he is getting a large cheque soon but that's his words and is he saying that just for me to keep giving. I can only take so much.