Hey. So I'm 21, just graduated college(a semester early) with a B.A in geography and I have applied to so many jobs in my field but either no companies reply back or they reply with a rejection letter. I've even applied to jobs that have nothing to do with my major. I did get hired a month ago by as an administrative assistant that is totally unrelated to my major but I had to quit last week because my boss was abusive and making my anxiety problems worse. Part of the reason why my boss was being abusive was because I have a learning disability in which I have trouble remembering things and have trouble understanding spoken words and instructions. Thankfully, I am okay financially because I still live in my dads house but I know I need a job eventually for my future family. I have a girlfriend of 2 years and if I am still unemployed by the time we marry, we would never be able to have kids. Anyways, its really depressing me that I am home laying in my bed all day.. Of course I am searching for jobs still and thinking of going for masters degree but I feel like a loser. My parents are at work, my girlfriend is at work.. I'm the only one staying home like a loser. And recently I am starting to lose hope of everything because of how my major won't get me employed anywhere(yes I really regret my major) so I am thinking death is the only possible way to end my misery. I know my family and girlfriend will get sad but I don't want to live my life like a loser anymore. Is there something I can do to improve my situation and eventually stop thinking about suicide?