I am 34 years old and now have no life. I can't work today because of my anxiety, and most people do not consider anxiety as a real health issue, and you should just pull it together and move on with life. But I freak out and get worried, so I don't deal with ANYTHING. That makes the anxiety worse. Like today, I woke up and felt like everyone at work is judging me or mad at me. I work for a small hometown restaurant, so I only work with about 10 people, Max. But I could not tell my boss that I couldn't come to work because I have anxiety. I even missed last week because of it and I lied and said my mom had a stroke. Not true at all. I cannot believe that I told them such a flat ass out lie. I have quit other jobs because I just could not get out of the car to go in, so I would just leave and never come back. But I can't believe that I actually said that my mother had a stroke. I have been worried also that they would find out that I lied since it's such a small town. I realize now, now that I have reflected on what I've done, that I desperately need help. I was supposed to be there at 11 am. But it's 12:15 pm and I'm sitting in bed, writing this. Someone? anyone out there? Please help. Has anyone ever done this before? Does it ever get better? It's been about 10 years since I have felt like myself. I don't make any decisions whatsoever about anything. I don't trust my own judgement, how can I expect others to?