I'm still in school and for the past three years I've had really weird thoughts about violently hurting those around me. It goes a lot further than that but its hard for me to recount it.
I came to realise they were intrusive thoughts and no part of my normal persona but when we studied criminal psychology at school it sent me on a breakdown.
Now when people tell me things that murderers or torturers have done I feel as though I'm at risk of doing the same thing.
I've since learned I would never act on those thoughts but one trigger can give me a turn for months. Ive been on a turn since just before Christmas and this one doesn't seem to go away.
I don't so much as feel like acting on them as I do just thinking about the things that could happen. They make me feel evil and cruel so I try hard to make them go away. The problem is I can never remember how I got them to go away before.
So my question is, should I talk to somebody about this or how can I get out of it again?