hi, i've made this account just now because i haven't been feeling well for the past 2-3 months and it's grown alarming since around the middle to ending of last month. i haven't been able to be professionally diagnosed unfortunately, however it is painfully obvious that i have anxiety including attacks as well as very bad paranoia. i've been having those troubles long before these past few months but it seems that they've escalated. i think this is due to being under more stress than usual recently. every day now i feel chest and arm pains on and off and i'm constantly afraid that i'll have a heart attack or organ failure at any second. i've had times of clarity, but most of the day i feel unfocused and my vision is blurry in one eye. my body feels heavy at random and like it's going to shut down and this causes a great deal of stress and many thoughts about dying. the same thoughts come up when i'm trying to go to sleep. when i try to rest i can't breathe well and i feel heavy, then when i'm bordering conscious and unconscious it feels like my breathing stops altogether (not sure if this is due to my asthma or if i've developed sleep apnea) and my heart rate falls too fast, which makes me jolt awake. this happens multiple times until i eventually cut out of consciousness altogether and wake up hours later. all of these things make me unbelievably nervous and it's very hard to calm down from it. i can never tell if these symptoms are truly fatal or if it's all anxiety. it makes me want to cry constantly and i'm unable to see a doctor.