I feel like I do not recall the person I used to be. How I would usually respond. Going out sometimes feels scary. Like I am way too aware. I feel like almost wiped of personality and if I think too much on thr concept of me, I get weirded out.
Real coincidence that I should see this in my "inbox" this morning. I don't often come onto anxiety support but this is what I experience a lot. Yes I have come to the conclusion it is depersonalisation. If I can give a name to it it helps me understand and yes I had it really badly for several days recently but now because I have confronted some of the things which are troubling me and made decisions it has helped.
Don't know if there's any connection with that with you? ie. stress levels may have been triggered to a higher extent than you can deal with (I've realised that I have what I would now describe as "core anxiety"; had never thought of it like this before; and then additional stressors or reexperiencing the things that set it off (for me one of the things is seeing other people being intimidated and feeling intimidated by someone myself ) seems to push it to a level I can't take. Also just being "drained out" ie giving giving giving and not getting back I feel can lead to depersonalisation for me. I guess it's anything wherein your own resources are not enough for the situation you're experiencing. It can be a question of looking at how you relate to people and whether you consider yourself or just constantly think of others (this is partly what it is for me but at a very deep level almost at the "core") though I expect also there are different causes for different people.
Sounds like depersonalization. I have that too. You are not alone. Right now I feel invisible, like I am going to lose control of my speech and that my mind might go blank. However, I know none of this will happen. It is a very weird feeling that is very difficult to discuss except with a therapist. YOU ARE NOT GOING CRAZY! Know that you are normal....well for those of us who depersonalized. I realize that when I am involved with someone (talking, reading, etc.) and not focused on myself and how I am feeling, I am not aware of it. Yes, part of the feeling when you are thinking about your feeling is very aware of parts of your body. I am a Christian, so reading the bible helps me tremendously. Knowing that I belong to God and am in His hands. Joyce Meyer speaks and writes about the battlefield of the mind and how to control your thoughts....excellent help. Take care. God loves you.
Do you feel that your extra sensitive to what is going on around you? Always exhausted or overwhelmed ? It's tough finding the right balance to make these emotions not so intense. Perhaps this information I found might help you.
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