So, Ive actually been doing pretty well not reacting to how I feel in order to give my body and mind the time to recover.
Because I cannot worry anymore! Cannot do it, nope, nope, nope. I have reached my limit and it hasnt helped me, except to feel worse, since worry is pointless and it only makes you more stressed.
Im going to feel the way I do whether or not I worry about it! But this is the way to get the symptoms gone-to not worry.
Ive gotta retrain the brain. And let me say, Im doing a lot better than I was three weeks ago, waking up all sweaty, crying, couldnt sleep, terrified of going mad.
Now? I can sleep! I havent jolted awake for...well, a while. Im not going crazy because tough I fear I will suddenly lose it, I wont. Doesnt matter how weird or bodiless Ifeel. God has this and He didnt put me in this mess, but He will use it for good things, like to help other people. And I think I might find that I will be grateful for dealing with this. Because after we overcome something mental...what cant we overcome?