Brand new to this site and I've never posted on anything like this before but I am desperate for help or advise or maybe just some reassurance.
I have suffered with what the doctors have labelled as depression for about 12 years (I'm 29 now) but the more I research the more I realise they have been wrong for so long - I suffer from anxiety.
Everytime I have any pressure put on me I crumble and can't cope with life at all. I've recently got a promotion at work and I am worrying about every little thing and it is manifesting in my mind to be the worse case scenario. I have racing thoughts of worry which the more I
I fight the worse it gets!
I've had about 2 hours sleep, broken down in front of my partner and it's taken me all day to calm myself down a little. Everytime I close my eyes I am awoken minutes after with a hot sweat, racing heart, overwhelmed with panic and feeling sick from the pit of my stomach.
I know rationally that nothing I am worrying about is even that big. My manager and colleagues have said people will miss things or get things wrong and make mistakes because of the nature of the high pressure roles we have and that everything can be fixed and no one will die from anything I have or haven't done. So why am I still obsessively worrying about EVERYTHING?? does anyone else feel this way? Does anyone have any way they deal With this to make it better or easier? I am not expecting a miracle cure because I know anxiety is such a complex issue but I am really at the end other teather! I'm supposed to be flying away for a weeks holiday in 2 days but I feel dread about going there because of how much I will worry about everything and how rubbish it will make me feel!
Any constructive advise would be so gratefully received. I am optimistic that perhaps we can beat this and control it, it's just so much easier said than done!!
I want to be happy and in control again xx