Feeling really low about things..

[Canon]

I'm feeling very low came home from work last night as I got very upset about things and didn't go in today but getting very worried about losing my job haveing problems with someone at work and feel every one is ageinst me , but are they or is it just me am I a problem to every one, see I lost people very dear to me, and that was my fault, so if I lose my job I mite as well be dead ..I feel like I'm losing every thing no one seem to listen to me, ..so I'm starting to think that I'm just making things up , but all I want to do is get on do my job but is it me putting things in the ? way as it seems to be me against every one..

Tx

[tamzin]

Hi Canon, Try and calm down! It sounds awkward at work but if you slow down your thinking about it,. When we are feeling bad, we take everything personally. You are doing the best you can. Hope this helps! Xx

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Hi Canon

It might sounds strange but the same it s happening to me...I had few problems at work as well with 2different people.Reasons were silly but I got so upset that icoudnt sleep we'll at night and I start thinking why always me?I think I m an easy target for bullies...I don t know why?but because I really want to stick to this job I decide to try to let go..to don t get upset otherwise my work mace will be a nightmare..I will try not to think about work when I m at home and ignore those people at work or just tell them that I don t like what they are saying or doing...try to relax more when u are out of work it will help to don t think about why it s happening to u o stop to think about those people..

[ellabella]

Hi Canon, Have you been back to the doctors lately or had anyone to talk to? You sound very lonely and upset. I'll tell you what both you and Train could teach those bully's a thing or two! I am so sorry that you have to feel like this about going to work. Pity you don't both work together. People are ignorant and they won't give it a second thought when they go home so don't you either. Whatever your pleasure is in life reward yourself for having to put up with the bigots. Maybe some day it will be happening to them and they will think of you and know how you feel. Baby steps here are needed and trust yourself and step out and live. I hope things change for you soon but do please consider going to your GP and ask for help and counselling. You are a human being and a nice one too with feelings. You need some face to face help. Don't give up and keep blogging on here. Get those feelings out my dears Love and Hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Canon]

Thank u I'm on the nhs waitting list to see someone and I really need to but I guess lot of people are waitting, but I do scared a lot as I do take every think out on my self ..Tx

[ellabella]

Canon, I would go and see the doctor and tell him you can't wait much longer as you have been having to come home ill from work. He may be able to ring and get you moved up the list love. I have heard of people doing this all the time and it works. He may be able to cover your time off work with a sick note as well. If you don't do that you could be waiting a long time if they think you are coping , love and hugs xxxxxxxxxxx

[noddy1951]

I've just read your dilemma and I know how you are feeling . . I am not well at the moment and have really started to blame it all on myself.. I usedd to enjoy my work so much and I tried really hard to please everyone and help everyone then just one person said something and it started a slippery slope. I've now been off work for about 6 weeks and the last place I want to be is there . the doctor says I'm depressed but I'm not sure I just know that sitting here on my settee is the best place for me at the moment. I hope you soon feel better . get to the doctor before you end up like me x

[ellabella]

Noddy it's not your fault that you feel like this. I'm so sorry you are depressed , but you know you can't make yourself depressed. I hope the doctor has arranged a follow up appointment for you? If he hasn't then make one yourself tomorrow. After 6 weeks you should have noticed an improvement if he has given you any medication. You come on here any time you want, it's for us to share and care about each other. A safe place where nobody will judge you or tell you to snap out of it Good Luck my friend xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Isobel]

Hi Canon,

It is important to share your feelings. Work takes up a lot of our lives and when you feel it is going wrong it feels it has a detrimental effect on all aspects of your life.I do know how you feel as my other people may know I am currently sitting at home when I should be working. The positive it is giving me time to reflect on the whole situation good and bad days like everyone here. Maybe it is me, but remember there is always someone who believes in you we just don't always see it. Big hugs to you.

[Canon]

The thing is I have had a lot of time off work and feel I can't have any more, I have told work I need something sorting out but I'm not sure if anyone will listen to me as in the past its just like they say ooo...it's just T*** going off on one again!! And I really don't think anyone beleaves me.

So what if they don't ? We're do I go from there ? Coz I don't know how mush more I can take with problems at work losing someone special to me and still having old demons in my head...Tx