I have been dealing with depression and anxiety since I was 12. I don't know why since I have a great life. I had a hard childhood but nothing so hard as to traumatize me. When I turned 18 I started self medicating and turned to opiates for relief. This worked but I ended up with a heroin addiction off and on for 8 years. I finally sobered up and started having extreme panic attacks. I thought demons were attacking me and I was scared to be alone with my own children. Not because I would hurt them but because I wasn't capable of helping myself let alone raising them. I started taking Zoloft and after a year without a panic attack I decided to stop the meds because I didn't like the side effects. I was never truly happy sad or excited just kind of bland and I always felt foggy. I went about 3 months before the panic attacks started again. Even before the attacks started again I was always so dizzy weak and I was extremely foggy and unfocused. So much so I would get out of the car without even putting it in park first!! I work full time and have three kids. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I've tried meditation, church, etc and now I'm gaining substantial weight. I eat healthy and exercise too... It's so frustrating.