Just got back from my new job. Its at a large Resort here in town The place was buzzing with people So I go down to the production kitchen to meet my new work mates. My anxiety was ok until I met with Johnathan. He talks so fast I couldn't get half of what he was saying.(I wear a hearing aid) As i was being shown around the kitchen and J was explaining what I was to be doing my anxiety started to rise. The resort opens on May the 1st and they were already starting to prepare food for the opening.... On day one we have a full house which runs over 400 hundred people.... There is a banquet for 190 on opening day.... As I started to take in all this information I began to bring in my CBT training....I am so glad I bought that book... I have been in this kind of busy kitchen before.. and doing banquets is easier than doing individual orders..... We make everything before hand and then plate it as service requires..... But after 6 years of not working at this level of intensity I was getting very anxious... So ok I talk with the Chef and get my paperwork and I leave for the day.... Now if I had`nt gone through the CBT book I probably would be thinking "I can`t handle that" ... the negative thoughts that come with anxiety I can control a little better now because of the coping skills I have learned over the past few days.
In a new job its always that everybody knows what they are doing. But I have not a clue. So I would feel stressed out and would attach a negative thought to my lack of understanding... Like.... I am a fraud ...or I am stupid.... But in reality most of the staff there today have worked at the resort for years....How could I know as much as they do on my first day. So I blocked out those negative thoughts using the CBT techiniques. I am back home now and I feel ok But still a little jumpy. I am back in tomorrow morning for a full day of work... so I am sure it will be busy... but I know I can do anything they ask me to do. Trying not to worry about my being able to hear properly in a busy noisy kitchen I`ll be able to do it or I wont.. Just can`t get thinking to far ahead... In the moment is best...Bless you all steve