This is skyrooms. I NEED HELP.I can finally tell everyone,that I think Ive given up on myself or life. I just want to stay home all day. Right now,I watch US politics daily. I am sitting in bed. I DONT GO out. I ALSO have IBS and depression. I think I must be depressed. I dont want to take care of myself anymore. My hair is a mess. I am in pjs daily. I try to make the best of my situation. I dont know how to get out of my house or my bed. Theres more stuff that I dont do to take care of myself. I am not happy. I want help. But I want to go slow. Can anyone relate? My panIc attacks started when I was 17. They did not know what it was then. I am ok with panic for now. I just dont know how to get up out of bed and go outside anymore. I could watch the news 24/7 AND be happy?What is wrong with me? I dont want to go out to see therapist,so I do phonecalls.Now, i am afraid to go into the shower. This is where I am drawing the line. Doctors dont know what to say to me.This has been going on since my IBS diagnosis and now,I am at my worst. I dont think I have hit bottom yet.Any thoughts? Its 1 am here. Thanks for being here with me since October. Hope everyone is feeling ok. Thank you all who have already helped me. I did not want to tell you how bad my anxiety was. I have vivid anxiety dreams nightly. I am on prozac which stops my panic,but I wake up with high anxiety every am.
Much love and thanks,