Last February 2013 my mind and body came to a halt. Meaning I have been fighting this battle of anxiety and depression since 20 years or more. I am so tired- now I am having physical issues, my blood pressure, my stomach, my knees, when does it stop. I had to take long term disability with my employer afterall high stress jobs dont want anyone that cant deliver or perform. So, now I am struggling to repair my health, my mind and its not coming as it did when I was younger- is it the fact that I am having health issues. The long term disability has a clause that I have to file for SS Disability. I did and I was denied. I am sitting here crying because I have never not been able to work or perform and I always had a fight in me. What happens when you become depleted? What happens when you have tried and tried just to make it with this spiraling downward mental illness that one day I think I am going to make it and I am empowered the next day I am in tears. I have been on increased medicine but I think if I continue to push I will truly end up just empty, not fighting, not knowing. Where to next?